Discs.: The same as always, even if I really wish for it -I don´t own the show or the characters of CM!
A/N: Well this is my first Cm fanfic, before this I wrote three fics for WaT. I´m a big Elle/Hotch fan and, because there are (in my opinion) not enough fics about them I wrote my own...I rewtote some parts of it...
Sweet, little secrets, part 1 1.How it began
It had started long before they came that close to each other. After that hostage situation he had changed. Before that incident he had treated her different, he had respected her from the beginning but was, like always totally professional, he was aware of the conduct codes of the FBI, he never touched her not even a short touch on the shoulder to encourage her – not that he behaved in front of other female agents differently, but on the other hand with male agents it was different: they received encouraging gestures like a light clap on the shoulder. But then he had changed – only in front of her – suddenly he gave her encouraging looks and stuff like that, during the flights they sat next to each other talked about the case or just sat there, both thinking about their own personal stuff. After she had been shot he was often in the hospital, sitting next to her bed, watching her, just to make sure she was okay – now. Once she had woken up without him noticing right away – and she was able to see the guilt in his eyes even if everyone knew it hadn´t been his fault. Afterwards he had worried a lot about her, before she left.
Not even two months after Elle left the BAU :
Hotch opened the door of the bar, it was one of the bars the team often visited to celebrate birthdays, good endings of bad cases, stuff like that, and wanted to take a seat on a table that was placed in a dark corner when he saw a brown- haired woman, who looked so much like Elle. After another moment he was pretty sure that it really was her so he walked over to the place where she sat and said, after taking a seat next to her : "Hey ." Elle turned around surprised to hear a voice that sounded so familiar, when she saw that it was her former boss she smiled and greeted him in a light tone : " Hey! Nice to see you after a so long time. What are you doing here?" Aaron thought a moment about how to answer that question. He did not want to tell her how horrible he still felt, because of what had happened to her, how guilty he still felt or that he regretted having let her go, so he answered only : " I just wanted to have a drink after working on a difficult case…What is your reason to be at this late hour still up and in a bar? By the way how are you?" " Fine, thanks, "after seeing his doubtful expression she went on, "really, I´m feeling much better." "We have a new team member…She´s not even half as good as you…However, I´m glade that you feel better. But you should not have quit!" "What else should I have done? I haven´t even trusted myself! And I actually trusted no-one on the team…I was feeling helpless and alone. I felt like I was more a burden than any help for you…" "Listen, you are not a burden, you never could be one! You got that?!" When Aaron saw her nod his facial expression changed to a very satisfied one. After a moment Elle asked : "So how is everyone?" He thought for a moment, then he answered : "Well, they are missing you! I mean, they start to accept your decision but it´s still hard for them. And your replacement, Emily Prentiss, is…I actually don´t know. She´s the daughter of a politician and she is used to always get what she wants. It is very hard to get along with her and even harder to like her! She is the total opposite of you!" "Oh…Well, what´s with Haley and Jack?" "The usual…They are fine. But I wish I could spent more time with them!" "What was that difficult case about?" She grinned. "A woman had been killed. Her murderer had first raped her, then he had burned her ´til she died. Afterwards he had cut through her throat and sent her head to her boyfriend. I should better mention that she was married! At the end we found out that it had been her own brother, who did this to her. He was the best-friend of her husband. He also was psychotic." Elle just smiled for a while, before she said suddenly : "What is the real reason?" Hotch looked at her, totally stunned. "Well Hotch, you should not forget that I had worked as profiler!" "You could still be one. I mean you are one hell of a profiler! It had not been that long since you have quit and it would be easy to get you back on the team. Before you say something, Prentiss is not a problem she could find something better very fast! But okay…I´m here because I needed a distraction of the work and everything else! I can not sleep, then there is Jessica who has decided to visit us for three weeks, and so it´s very difficult to even talk with Haley about something without her sister telling her own opinion even if she is not asked about what she is thinking, this morning Haley and I had an argument, because I told her that I want Jessica to leave sooner and to top all of this I have nightmares and every moment of the day, when I have nothing to distract me I feel guilty, because of…a lot of things." He wasn´t able to tell her that he felt especially guilty because of what happened to her. "What´s with you, Elle?" " Nearly the same…I mean I really feel better but there are moments, when I´m totally down and regretting so much I did wrong in my life!" Like this they talked and drank.
Nearly three hours later :
"Hey Elle, we should better leave now, before we get to drunk to walk…" Elle only nodded. They paid their drinks separated – Hotch had asked to pay for both of them but she said no. They walked outside. After a moment of silence Aaron said : "Well, maybe it would be better, if I bring you home…," he trailed off and Elle nodded in agreement. So when finally a cab arrived they waved to make it stop and took both a seat in it. Elle told the driver her address and leaned back. They sat next to each other, saying nothing.
When they arrived he left the taxi as well, wanting to walk her to her door, making sure nothing would happen to her. During the time Elle searched for the right key Aaron put an arm around her, suddenly feeling what he had tried to forget since he noticed it the first time. He gave her a tender kiss onto the side of her neck. Elle unlocked finally the door and they went in. After closing – or to be more exact - nearly slamming the door shut Hotch pinned her onto it and they started kissing each other in a passionate but also tender way. When they broke away for air they smiled at each other and she led him to the bedroom, where they continued where they stopped. She started undressing him stroking over the toned muscles of his thorax, kissing and touching him., she went on with her task in undressing him. He did the same with her after she was finished with pulling off his trousers and pants. He pulled off her shirt, her pants. He stroked her hair, letting his hands slide down on her side opening the clasp of her bra. It fall down to the ground. He touched her smooth skin, cupped her perfect breasts, before he finally let his hands slide to the top of her panties and pulled them down as well. They sank down onto the top of her bed. They enjoyed a long passionate but also tender foreplay, during which they explored each other. When he finally entered her they both were more than ready for each other. Every thrust, every single touch brought them closer to their climax. After another few moments he felt her shudder a bit, under him, the next strong thrust was for both of them the undoing. It wouldn´t be the only time in that night.
At the morning Aaron´s cellphone started ringing. He answered it. It was Gideon, who wanted to know where he was. The two men talked for a moment and then ended the conversation. Elle had stood up and was making coffee when Hotch came down. They drank both a mug of it before he finally left.
At the residence of the family Hotchner, a bit more than 20 minutes later :
Aaron opened the door. His wife was sitting in the living-room and stood up when she heard the door being opened and shut. " Where have you been the whole night? I was worried nearly to death, Jessica is gone…Wait - have you drunk…?" "Well, a friend from my college time had been left by his wife, he needed someone to talk to, so he called me. Sorry, that I haven´t called you to tell you I wouldn´t be home. I can not stay that long, because I have a new case…"
Tbc
A/N: I hope you liked it! Please send me a lot of REVIEWS, please...
