everyone knows Stephenie Meyer owns twilight not me
just so everyone knows i live in outback Australia so if i get any American terms wrong im sorry i didnt mean too

Edwards POV

Edward could you please smile for esmes sack, it hurts her to see you like this Carlisles thoughts pushed their way through my miserable thoughts. I looked up to see esmes concerned face looking back at me every few seconds. When I caught her gaze I smiled the best smile I could manage

Was that the best you could do? That wont help her at all, you looked like you were in pain Carlisle thought. I had a really good comeback.
i was in pain!!
I wanted to say that he dragged me away from my solitary hell to come to Denali. so the least he could do was to allow me to feel the way I wanted to.

Instead I just looked out the car window. It had been 26 years since I left my bella. And every moment of those 26 years had been painful. Painful wasn't a strong enough word for it. Excruciating, heartrending, anguished, distressing, agonizing- no word in any language was harsh enough to describe my pain over those years. I tried not to think of her as happy and married with children, even though that was what I wanted, I never thought of it. Instead I thought of every moment bella and I had been together. Those 8 months had been my heaven, my sun in a moonless night I called my existence. I relived every touch, every caress, every kiss. I found myself smiling at the memories of bellas sleep talking or the way she found a way to trip on nothing.

It had been my life until two days ago. My family quiet literally dragged me out of my shack, I called home, and told me I was going to the denali's. they wanted to show me that I had something to live for.
Huh
Without bella in my life I had nothing to live for. But they thought they were helping me. So here I was, sitting in the back of Carlisles car. I wasn't even allowed to drive my own car, as they thought I may try to escape.

The denali's rang and told us they wanted us to come for a visit. They had a new girl join their coven and none of us had met her. We had been too caught up in our own lives to go visiting. This was a Cullen reunion. Emmett and Rosalie had been on their 35 honeymoon, this time in Paris. Alice and Jasper had been hunting in Africa. While Carlisle had taken esme way for some time to themselves. They had been on Esme's Isle. Other then Alice, esme had taken bella's departure the worst. She had tried, in vain, to keep us all together. Two years ago she just cracked. She fell to her knees and cried, unable to stop. Carlisle had been so worried about her that he wisp her away from all her pain.

So we were all nervous as we pulled up at the Denalis house. It was a stunning 4 story colonial house with a rap around veranda. Before we were even out of the cars the Denali clan were out the front waiting for us. Irena, Tanya, Cameron, Garrett and Eleazar were all smiling at us.
[A/N yes i have Garrett as part of the Denali clan, i love him and kate, i think their cute]

'it is good to see you all' Garrett smiled as we went towards them

'it is good to see you too old friend' Carlisle smiled and shock Garretts hand. Cameron immediately went to Esme and hugged her. The Denalis knew of Esmes struggles.

'it is so good to have you here' Cameron smiled kissing esmes cold cheek

'it is good to be here' Esme replied. In truth esme was feeling better then she had in a long time. That had been why Carlisle had arranged the trip.

'come inside all of you. Your rooms are the same as always' Eleazar said putting his arms around camerons shoulders. I felt a pang in the region of my dead heart. I used to do that to bella. I looked away.

'so where is your new addition?' Carlisle asked

'she and Kate are in town. Kate had to do something and none of us wanted to help her' Tanya grinned at idea of torturing her sister.

'they shouldn't be too much longer' Irena added 'why don't you all get settled until they get back'
time to myself, I thought I was in for that. I didn't say a word as I walked up stairs.

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I heard the noise below me. Kate and the new addition to the Denali clan had just arrived home. My family were starting to leave their rooms.

Move you selfish ass Edward was the only thought alice gave to me. She had not forgiven me for leaving bella. I signed and left the room, ignoring them all as I walked down stairs.

The Denali clan were in the living room. As soon as we entered Kate rushed to esme hugging her tightly.

'how are you darling?' she whispered

'taking one day at a time' Esme replied putting on a smile

'oh honey' Kate kissed esmes cheek 'you stay as long as you want, we love you here'

'so where is this new addition you talk about? Im beginning to think your all making her up' Carlisle grinned as he sat down. Esme sat close next to him.

'we would never, she's coming..' Garrett started

'no shes here' a voice came from the kitchen.
I knew that voice.
It was smoother and more angelic, but I knew it.

I skinny brunette vampire came into the livingroom every Cullen gasped. They knew her too.

Bella.

a/n
you had to see that coming
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