I couldn't think straight today, to everyone's amazement. Whether they know or don't, it doesn't matter. The feeling in my chest was too distracting for me. How I'm lucky that I have such great skill at hiding my true intention/emotion, whichever the moment calls for. But... sometimes, I think these times are too much for even me to handle.
"Hey there, Rob! Wow, you look like you have a lot on your mind. What's up?"
I couldn't answer him, but I tried. I tried.
"Ah... Nothing, Kon. Just, uhh.. Thinking."
"Dude, are you sure 'bout that? You seem to be thinking too much lately. Man, if it's something I did, then--"
"No, it's not."
I tried to explain to him why I was being too quiet and unresponsive for the past few weeks, but my throat seemed to be choked on something. I couldn't bring myself to tell him what I wanted to for the longest time. The thoughts were going through my head. Things like, 'why would he even like me if I did tell him? I'm not the usual 'hot girl' he would ask on a date', 'would this ruin our best friendship?' and things that would go with that.
I made a conclusion today, that I would tell him. So what if he doesn't like me the same way I do, I know he won't judge me by it. I just know him that well. I hope. So, I walked into the main hall, and I seen him. The sight of him made my heart flutter and my face felt so warm. What's wrong with me? I seem like a girl.
"Oh, it's Tim. Yo!"
He made such a wonderfully goofy grin, it almost made me laugh even though I'm still feeling so weird. He waved his gloved hand at me, walking towards as I had stood there. I lifted my own hand, giving a slight "flick" towards him, wearing this half-end smile upon my face while I had tried, tried, so hard to fight the ache-y feelings I've been experiencing. This is so not me.
"Kon," I said with a squeak of my voice, I think he hadn't noticed. I really hope not.
"S'up, Wonder Boy! Erm... you don't look so hot. You feelin' okay?" He had a concern in those blue eyes of his. I couldn't keep myself from looking up into those pools of aqua, they were so entrancing. I caught myself in a few seconds, looking down immediately and placing a fist to cover a mock cough. I hope I can change the subject before he asks why I was looking at him like that.
"Yeah. Yeah, I'm okay... But... uhhn..."
I just let out a sigh of breath, getting ready to tell him what I need to. I changed the direction of my face to look towards the meta, taking off the mask as I felt I didn't need to conceal anything from Kon. I gave him a reassuring smile, hoping that gave him a hint that this wasn't anything bad, at least, I didn't think it was. By the time I opened my mouth to proclaim what I think was love, a finger came and came to cover my lips. I blinked towards him, wondering what it is he had to stop me for.
"Tim. Rob. Whatever it is you wanna be called, I think I know what it is exactly what you're going to say." He grinned so friendly but , but this one made my face fluster, I think. I quirked a brow at him before I swept up my hand and grabbed that gloved finger of his. I just hope this would give him some idea as to what exactly I was thinking. I closed my eyes suddenly, letting my face stay as its oh-so-red color and let my tongue touch the tip of his fingertip before I retracted it. I re-opened my eyes, no matter how embarrassing it would be when I see his face.
"Yeah. Heh, I knew it. Why couldn't you tell me earlier? This could've gone further."
His grin grew even more wide. I was relieved but confused at the same time.
But, this opened a new light, I suppose.
