Remembrance

AN:) Hello! Wrote this on a whim... Ok just to clear things up (beforehand) ... This is about what was going on in Lupin's head when he was asleep on the train. For the Dim-witted, He's reliving his memories. Enjoy.
= Remus' thoughts

Remus Lupin curled up in his seat on the Hogwarts Express. He was exceptionally tired, being the day right after the full moon. He was a bit late going to King's cross; he had woken up in the middle of the forest next to his little cottage and had a hard time finding his way back. Why exactly he had picked this particular compartment? Old times sake. Now he was dead tired of everything, he just wanted to sleep. As he sunk into a deep slumber, he thought he heard some one say his name: Professor R.J Lupin.

R.J. He had never used R.J as his name...No that was wrong he had when he met his friends...

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"Hello? Any one sitting here? Everywhere else is full."

"Sure... R.J Lupin." Said the boy with pale eyes; he was reading Remus' trunk.

Remus' face flushed. "Thanks." He said sitting next to the door.

"Sirius Black." Said the boy who had read his trunk.

"Nice to meet you, I go by Remus."

"Oh really? James Potter." Said the boy sitting across Sirius; he had messy blue-black hair and glasses.

They were quiet for a moment. Remus could feel some tension in the air and wondered if they could sense what he was.

"So..." said James as if trying to start a conversation. "Starting at Hogwarts too?"

"Yes, what house do you think you'll be in?" Asked Remus, trying just as hard.

"Gryffindor or Ravenclaw can't tell which." Came the answer.

"Why d'you say that?" Said Sirius

"My mom was a Ravenclaw, My dad a Gryffindor."

"Ah...that makes sense now doesn't it? My parents were in Gryffindor, you?"

It took a moment for Remus to realize he was being talked to.

"Huh? Oh, um... Ravenclaw."

"Oh..." They both nodded, looking a bit disappointed.

A few hours later there was a disturbance in the corridor and a short, chubby boy fell in to their compartment followed by a roar of laughter. Remus, being the closest to the door helped the boy up.

"What? Who're you?" Asked Sirius

The boy looked tearful, but he answered "P-p-peter P-p-petti-g-grew."

James who had walked to the compartments glass door said, "What'd they do to you?"

"S-some Slytherin fifth years were teasing me, p-pushing m-me around."

"They're still out there; you'd better stay here."

"T-t-thanks"

"I've heard some stuff about Slytherin." Sirius said grudgingly.

James nodded. "Me too."

"Who're all right?" Remus asked

The boy simply nodded.

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"So, where were you this time?" Sirius said a bit snidely.

"Huh?" Remus said, trying to buy time.

"He said, where were you?" James said with an uncharacteristic edge in his voice.

"My Mom was sick she-" Remus lie began

"Always at the full moon what a coincidence, Remus." Sirius said sharply, James gave him a warning look.

Remus stayed quiet.

"Anything you'd like to tell us Remus?" James asked the edge gone from his voice he looked concerned.

"No." Remus lied

"Drop the facade Remus, we know." Sirius said

"Know what?" He asked them innocently

They all looked to James who in turn sighed and said; "we know what you are." He seamed to want to avoid saying it; he had never beaten about the bush like this before.

"You disappear every full moon into the Infirmary looking sickly and come back looking ten times worse, you can't touch silver and unless I'm very much mistaken that Boggart turned into the moon when it saw you last week, so are you or are you not a werewolf?" James said quickly, it looked like it pained him to say this to Remus.

Remus stayed quiet.

"You are?" Sirius said, disbelieving (Peter backed away at this point, he had been very quiet during the confrontation)"Why didn't you tell us?"

"You'd hate me, just like everyone else."

James and Sirius laughed, "Of course we wouldn't!"

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"Remus, in here!" Sirius hissed from an unused classroom.

Backtracking Remus followed his voice to the classroom. What met his eyes was astonishing.
A very strange assortment of animals stood in the middle of the room. What the hell? Remus thought What is Sirius playing at? Where was he?

"Sirius?" Remus said, looking around the room.

The enormous black Bear-Dog barked. Remus looked at it, those pale eyes looked familiar...
The white Stag next to the Bear-dog pawed the floor, looking impatient. Remus noticed a rat crawling among its antlers.

"James? Peter?" He called, perplexed.

The rat squeaked and the Stag pawed the floor vigorously. The dog made a whining sort of noise in the back of its throat. The animals looked uncomfortable.
Without warning all the animals writhed, and in seconds they were all shimmering slightly. Remus wasn't sure what to do, should he run? Get the Headmaster? Animals surely weren't allowed in the school.

All of a sudden Sirius was panting on the floor and Remus had a split seconds view of James balancing Peter on his head before he yelled and fell to the floor.

Both Sirius and Remus burst into laughter as James stood up, rubbing his neck.

"So? What d'you think?" They all asked anxiously.

"Great, absolutely fantastic! Augh this is wonderful!" Remus exclaimed beaming.

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"Race you to Zonko's!" Sirius yelled to Remus and James, it was their first trip to Hogsmeade.

They spent hours in Zonko's looking at biting teacups, dungbombs, stink-pellets, and much other mischief making paraphernalia.

Lining up with their arms positively loaded with things. The pretty salesclerk smiled at Remus as he paid in gold (he never really liked Sickles) he returned the smile but frowned a bit when he saw she was returning the change in Sickles. He winced as the silver stung his skin like acid. Throwing the Sickles in his bag hastily he stuck his fingers in his mouth.

"What's wrong?" Asked James.

"Silver." Remus said, to quickly.

"Ah... you ok?" Sirius said, a note of concern in his voice.

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"Who's that?"

"Who's that?"

"Ginny?"

"Hermione?"

"What are you doing?"

"I was looking for Ron."

"Come in and sit down."

"Not here, I'm here!"

"Ouch!"

"Quiet!" Lupin said, annoyed how was he to be able to sleep with that racket? Opening his eyes he saw what the commotion was about. The lights were out. Conjuring a handful of flames he looked around at the faces in the compartment. There was a round faced boy, another boy with flaming red hair and a girl who could only be his sister, another girl with brown hair and... Remus' blood ran cold. James Potter was sitting by the door.

He had to blink twice. Surely James wasn't sitting there. It had to be some one else. But he looked so much like James... The compartment door sliding open jolted his thoughts. A Dementor was standing in the doorway.

The familiar cold ran into his blood and he felt the dull ache in his joints, the tearing of his spine reconfiguring...

'James' had fallen to the floor, the girl with brown hair cried, "Harry!" No, not James' son He thought.

"No one is hiding Sirius Black under our cloaks, go." Remus grunted through the familiar pain of Transforming.

The Dementor stood over the now twitching Harry sucking everything out of them.

Stepping over Harry, Remus pulls out his wand, "Expecto Patronus." He muttered. Watching the form of his Patronus wolf chase out the Dementor, he feels the pain and cold leave him. What does it do for him? Remus thought, looking down at the now still Harry.

The lights flickered back on and the girl named Hermione kneeled by Harry, slapping his face.

"Harry! Harry!"

"What?" Harry said looking around He has Lily's eyes

"Who screamed?" He asked

Remus took a large piece of chocolate from his suitcase. They all jumped when he broke it. He smiled when Harry looked up at him God, he looks just like James. Harry shook his head a bit and his bangs uncovered his scared forehead. My, God... that's were Voldemort... Lily why did you?

When Remus left the compartment to owl the school, thinking all the while about: Harry... James, Lily, Peter... The Traitor. He didn't think of Sirius by name anymore, he knew him only as The Traitor.

Letting the grey owl fly threw the window Remus vowed to James and Lily that The Traitor would never get to Harry, ever whilst he was alive.

AN:) Like it? Well as always I didn't know how to end it...Sorry. I was taking a break from Aurora: Year One when this idea slapped me upside the head and I just HAD to write this. It's all right in my eyes but I'm sure you guys will hate it. Yes people I have no self-confidence. To tell the truth I'm scared of posting Aurora: Year One... I got such great reviews for After-Life that urgh; you guys gave me a phobia! HOW THE HELL DOES THAT HAPPEN? The world may never know... Well R/R as always... Thanx
Katia