A/N: So yeah this is a new long multi-chapter fic that I'm doing on Gravitation. I actually got inspired by a situation that I'm currently in, so yeah this basically has all what went on during my situation and my feelings on it. But don't worry I will do my best to stay true to the Gravitation manga, and make all the characters as In-character as possible, there will also be some familiar scenes and people from the manga that I will be making reference to. So I will be doing my very best to not stray from the canon. And no, Yuki won't be all sweet and mushy in this fic even at the end. Since I really can't stand fics that even try to warp Yuki's character that way. Anyway's I do have an OC in this fic, she is not based on me though but on someone that I know, and she will be the central antagonist in this fic. But the ones the fic will really be focusing on are Shuichi and Yuki. So anyway's with all that said, I should probably shut my babbling and just get on with the story, remember read with an open mind!!

Disclaimer: Gravitation does not belong to me, but to Maki Murakami.

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The Opposite of Love

Prologue.

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Where did it begin to go wrong?? Just were did it fucking begin?! I loved him, I loved him so much. I was willing to give him everything, no wait I already had given him everything. But then she showed up and took it from me, just like Tohma had long, long ago. She's the one who Yuki finds more important; she's special to Yuki. Not like me, not like me the used glory hole. The disregarded sex toy who is just there for him to come. Hell, the only times he's even nice to me is when we're having or when he wants to have sex. He doesn't love me, he just thinks of me as a brat, a damn nuisance whose so immature he can never be seen as his equal. He doesn't love me, he loves her. No wait that's not true either, the only person he's ever truly loved is the real Yuki, Yuki Kitazawa.

Well fuck him too.

Fuck Yuki Kitazawa!!

I-If it weren't for him, Yuki wouldn't even be so messed up and maybe he would've never put me through this. Oh crap now I'm crying, I can't believe I'm even crying over a bastard like him, he probably doesn't even give a shit about my feelings. So then why?? Why did I have to fall in love with him, why him?! If only I had never gone to the park that night, I should have just taken a different route, or if only the wind hadn't blown so strongly that I had to drop my goddamn lyrics.

If only…..

If only she hadn't come into our lives. But wishing for the impossible is for fools, a hard lesson I learned the hard way not too long ago. Just like wishing that Yuki would love me back was impossible. A beautiful dream, that was far too far-fetched to ever hope to be catched.

"You damn brat!!"

"You're looking pretty cute right now''

"Listen up, anybody that tries to take my boy away will officially get his ass kicked by me.''

"You're mine, Ryuichi can't have you!!''

"Heh, guess I'll have to mark you to show just who exactly you belong to.''

"Shuichi……''

"Yuki….. YUKI!!!!''

Crap, now I'm crying even harder, the tears just won't stop flowing. As I start to remember all the times Yuki and I have been through, when he was mean to me, when he was nice to me, when he claimed me as his own, when he was being possessive, during sex….. I realized something when I was remembering all those times.

I still love him.

Goddamn it!! I still love the fucking bastard, even after all he's done to me, even after he's betrayed me, he still holds my heart in his hands. A heart which I handed to him on a silver platter, knowing that I will never get it back.

Fuck no wonder it hurts so much, he has my fucking heart!!!! Yet I don't have his, Tohma has it, Kitazawa has it, and she has it. But not me no, never me.

And so as I lay here in my home that doesn't feel like home, I think about my sad and pitiful life story. And how someone like me, ended up like this. This is the story of me, Shuichi Shindo, the guy who had it all but is now a miserable mess. This is my story.

"And so let us begin this tale of love and hate intertwined."

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A/N: So yes this is our story's angsty and very dramatic prologue. The first chapter should be up soon, but damn I hope I didn't overdo it too much with the angst. Don't worry though, something like this isn't going to get Shuichi down(as you will see in the coming chapters ) he'll still be his cheerful, hyper, slightly insane self. I'm not going to make him so totally distraught that it ruins his character. Anyways, if any of you readers are wondering who "she" is. "She" will be appearing very very soon, perhaps even in the first chapter. I decided to make the prologue from Shuichi's point of view, but I still haven't yet decided whether I will write this in first person POV or third person POV. Anyways, just like with my other stories your reviews are everything to me. Please give me constructive criticism on the prologue and tell me whether my writing style is good, if I got Shuichi and Yuki pretty much in-character, or if the premise/story sounds good or too overdone. Anything at all will help, even it's bad things about my story, since I'm always trying to improve as a writer and this is my first Gravitation fanfic. So please, please, give detailed concrit telling me what I did right and wrong, and I promise to return the favor on your fic.

By the way, the line "Listen up, anybody that tries to take my boy away will officially get his ass kicked by me.'' is a direct reference from the Gravitation manga volume 11. I wonder if anybody could remember that part or noticed it?? It always was one of my favorite parts in the manga lol. (Hopefully I got the line right, ahh it's been so long since I've read that volume.) Anyways, till next time.

FireMiko

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