I read alot of angst, but that does not mean I know how to write them. Please be gentle, this is only my second story.
Renji's POV
Disclaimer: Dance-of-the-waves does not own Bleach


It hurts knowing that he wouldn't be around anymore. It hurt knowing there would be no more pointless fighting and arguing.

I'm not sure I can deal with it. I'm dealing with it better than the others, but that isn't hard.

Chad doesn't talk at all anymore. Sure, he was always quiet, but this is depressing. Even if he wanted to, I'm not sure he could. It's been so long. He feels helpless now, just like Ichigo use to.

Orihime lost it. She didn't stop crying for weeks after it happened and she even passed out a few times. When she woke up it was right back to the water works. Then she went into a depression and didn't talk. She finally went back to the human world. Haven't heard from her since.

Uryu followed in his father's footsteps. He became silent and with drown. He didn't show it often but he really cared for Ichigo. He left for the human world too. Haven't seen or heard from him either.

The other humans Ichiog knew seemed confused and lost. The soul reapers that knew him weren't much better.

It hurts to just say his name, Ichigo, it hurts. The others have done their best to avoid bringing him up, but that hurts too. It's almost as though he was never here. I can feel his voice fading from my mind. His looks are fading too. I don't know what to do. It hurts to remember him, but I can't imagine forgetting him. As for me, I've lost the will to fight. People that didn't know Ichigo or me very well, will often look at me as if wondering what happened to the once fiery red head. I can't answer them and even if I could I'm not sure I would. I'm lost and don't know what I can do about it.


Well? Tell me what you think. Just use nice word. That would make me very happy. If you are mean, I will tell my EMO friend to eat you. Please review! XD