I woke up with the light coming from a strange angel, I moved around, not knowing where I was, or what time it was, I looked down and suddenly I remembered. There was it my beautiful baby bump.

Even though I was sad and utterly terrified, I knew that I had to be strong...

(2 months ago)

I was sitting in my bathroom, staring at the pregnancy test that had a big fat pink plus on it. My first reaction was to smile, the first smile since he left. And then it kicked in. I was 18 and pregnant. I was 18 and pregnant and alone. I was 18 and pregnant and alone and my baby was half vampire... I am SO screwed.

I did not know what to do, so I decided that a hot shower was in order, it always helped me calm my nerves. So I undressed, let my hair down and hopped into the shower. The water was relaxing, but as I tried to wash my hair I almost got sick from the smell of my strawberry shampoo. That was odd. I always, I mean always loved the scent, it felt like home, but now it just made me gag. So instead of washing my hair, I just put it up in a messy bun and got out off the shower.

But I still didn't know what to do and on top off that I felt panic slowly creeping up my spin and into my head. What would charlie say, he was the fucking chief of police in forks. That would ruin his entire reputation. So I couldn't tell him, and I couldn't stay here. It would ruin everything. And to be honest, I just wouldn't take the gossip that was sure to come once I start to show.

I had to clear my had, and without even realizing what I did I got in the car and started driving. I don't know how long I drove or where I was, until I was in front of the Cullen mansion. The white beautiful house that made me feel so at home looked cold, cold and left, just like me.

I walked to the front porch and pressed the handle down. But it was locked, what was I thinking, of course it was locked, this was Esme's baby, her home, her save place... my save place. I would have been disappointed in her if she hadn't kept it save.

All of a sudden I realized, that I couldn't go back to my dad, and that my mum definitely wasn't an option either. So without thinking I took a rock and smashed one off the windows next to the door and entered.

It still shocks me how beautiful this house is, how perfect every detail is. But it isn't like in a museum where you are afraid to touch anything. It is more like a beautiful piece of jewelery. You just can't stop marveling about it, and you want to touch it and feel the perfection.

So that's what I did, I walked inside and let my hands run over the smooth walls and the soft fabric of the furniture. I kept walking around and let my senses take over. Smelling the air. Taking in the familiar scent of home, a mixture of expensive leather, flowers and the faint scent of vampire. It was mouthwatering.

I made my way up the stairs, and found myself in Edward's room, laying down on his bed and drifting of to sleep.