Dear Mum
This is a letter that we have to write in case the worst thing happens to us. As the Sarg says it's a letter from beyond the grave, I've put off writing it so many times but now the Corp is haunting, bad choice of words, me for it. But I don't plan on you ever having to read this an' all, Mum.
First of all, Corp says that if we want this bad enough, we'll make it. And Mum, I wanted this. I wanted this more than I've ever wanted anything before. Once I got here I could see that I could make a real go of it and be a good soldier and hopefully a combat medic when I finish the training. So just know that, I was doin' something I was good at and that I love.
Mum, I need you to know that I love you. I know that you tried to be the best Mum you could possibly be for us kids. And I know I didn't make it easy for you. I wasn't the best kid and I wish I had been better for you. I wish I'd listened to you more, I wish I hadn't had such a mouth on me and that I'd tried to do better in school.
I'm sorry for all of that and that I wasn't a good example to the younger ones by going to school and making you proud of me. Which brings me to the next thing, make sure the rest of the kids stay in school and get good marks. I want you to use any money that you get from the army because of what happened to me to help the kids at school. Maybe one of them might gonna go to bleedin' University, one of thems got to be smarter than me, and if the money can help then use it.
Promise me Mum, promise me that it will be used for the kids to get through school and that Dad won't get his hands on it and piss it all away. I'll see one of them army lawyers and set up a fund or something.
Tell the kids that I love them and that they're not to be sad if the worse happens. Sarg says that if the worst happens that our families will miss us terribly, some of us aren't so sure about that. I'm not sure that Dad will miss me at all. I'll miss all of you.
Give Nan a hug and kiss for me. She can be a right cow sometimes but she always had time for us kids, especially me. Tell her to keep Dad on his toes as I won't be able too.
Keep an eye for the other girls I went through with, especially Katie. She was a good friend to me and I wouldn't have made it into basic if she hadn't helped me. I don't think I told you she loaned me the right shoes and leggings for my interview. I'd made a right cock up of the clothes for it but she got me sorted. I've made some good friends Mum and some even feel a bit like family.
I don't always make a good first impression, with my need to mouth off and be the class clown, but I'm trying to change that Mum. I have good instructors that help me all the time and they give me good advice. For the first time I feel like people who are better and smarter than me want me to be the best I can be. I don't know what they see in me but there must be something that makes them keep at me to do better.
Finally Mum, tell Dad that despite him being a right twat 99% of the time, I do love him. I could kill him most of the time but I still love him. He's my Dad after all.
I love you Mum
Your girl
Molly
