A.N: So this is the fic based on my fucking life I've told you guys I was going to write. Just so you know every single word and fact in this fic is completely true and exactly like it actually happened, so yeah, I hope you guys like it.

Chapter 1: Prologue

Being a teenager really sucks. Sometimes you're the happiest person alive, sometimes you want to die. Today you have thousands of friends and tomorrow you have none. You say you're never going to fall in love because it hurts like hell when you have your heart broken, but then you met that one person who made you catch your breath and get weak in the knees. You try to ignore everything that makes you remember that one person when everything falls apart, but in the end its all the same. You'll be crying on your best friend's shoulder, that one friend who between the thousand you had was the one you actually really needed to feel happy and loved. The one you needed to feel safe.

I've always thought I was weird you know? All of my friends were falling in love and having lots of boyfriends while I was sitting somewhere playing guitar, writing and drawing. I didn't felt the need to have a boyfriend, but I also never looked at a boy and felt attracted enough to go after him. I didn't care about being like everyone else. I was weird and liked things nobody else liked, but I was happy and I was popular. I just ignored the boy thing and if someone asked me why I didn't have a boyfriend I would answer the same thing as always: "I think I'm too young for one. I just wanna live and have fun and I don't need a guy for that."

I kept living my live normally like always. I've even started a band with two of my three best friends. I played guitar and sang, David played lead guitar and Harry played keyboards, but we didn't have a drummer, so basically we were useless cause a rock band goes nowhere without a drummer, but we've never given up looking for one. I wanted the band to workout cause being a musician, playing in front of millions of people was a fucking dream to me, but little did I know that this dream would lead me to find that one person who would change my ways and for the first time in my life make me fight for what I desired.

It might sound pretty stupid, but that one choice changed completely who I am now.

"Am I awesome or what?" Harry said sitting by my side on the school's patio floor. It was lunch break and Harry, David, Lucas and I always spent it together. We were best friends you know? Partners in crime. We were always together, laughing, talking shit and saying things that nobody but us could understand.

"What happened?" I asked the boy. Harry was tall, he had curly black hair and whore glasses. Harry wasn't his real name, but I don't know why we called him that. I knew it was because Harry Potter, but it didn't made sense since he didn't even looked like the guy who plays Harry Potter. Harry was obsessed with movies and music. You can say that the four of us together were the perfect example of normal geeks.

"I found us a drummer." He smiled brightly. A smile became plastered on my face at that exact moment. I couldn't believe it. We were looking for a drummer for over a year and suddenly Harry said he found one. "She lives one street from mine. She's fucking hot and here comes the bestpart for you, she's bisexual."

"Seriously?" I asked hopefully. "What's her name?"

"Selena. You have no idea how hot she is dude." Harry said getting excited with the idea.

"I think I got lucky this time." I giggled.

"Let's not forget the fact that she's bisexual, so hey!" David smiled raising his hand. "I'm also in the hunt."

"Seriously dude?" I raised a eyebrow. "I found one girl that maybe I will be able to make out with and you want her too?" David was the kind of guy who could get every single girl he wanted to. His brown hair was straight and went just above his eyes. I've never found out how he did to have so many girls drowning for him.

"She's right, you can have anyone you want to. You can leave this one for her." Lucas said. He had blond hair and also wore glasses. He was the one I could tell everything to without feeling shame.

"You would have more girls wanting you if you came out. How do you want to get girls if they don't know you're gay?" David said matter of factly.

"I'm not ready yet, ok. I spend three years as a fat kid being ignored by every single man on this earth and when I finally lose weight and get cute I found out I'm gay. It's pretty complicated to be honest." I confessed. "And my mom asked once if I was gay and I lied, so coming out will be basically saying that I'm a fucking liar."

"Drama queen." Harry mumbled.

"It's not drama ok. I'll tell people eventually, but not now."

"But the most important thing is that we have a fucking hot drummer and we're on the road to success my friends." David smiled and we giggled.

The rest of the day went by pretty normally. The classes were boring, teachers were annoying and I ended up learning nothing at all. I went home, did my homework and watched tv like any normal day until I got a text message from Harry. I could see the excitement in his words from the way he wrote them.

I wasn't even paying too much attention until I actually started to read it.

'I talked to Selena and SHE FUCKING ACCEPTED IT! SHE'S IN OUR FUCKING BAND YOU CRAZY LESBIAN!' I laughed loudly reading his message and typed one back.

'That's fucking awesome dude! Seriously, I can't wait to meet her.' I waited two minutes for a response.

'Well, here's your future lay Miss Lovato.' Underneath his words there was the picture of the newest band member. For the first time in my life I stopped breathing over someone. She was so beautiful that I couldn't even believe my eyes. Her tanned skin and long raven hair were flawless. Her curves made my mouth water like hell and her eyes made me get lost in them. She was all I ever wanted and more.

I didn't answer Harry's message. I stared at her picture almost the whole night, letting her name slide from my lips once in a while, tasting it on my tongue. It was beautiful. Selena. She was beautiful and I wasn't going to rest until she was mine.

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