Love is stupid. I didn't believe it at all. Of course I have gone out with guys, Ryder, etc, but did I believe in love? No. I understand my parents are in love, well without them I wouldn't be here. At all. But I wonder how they do it. How they loved each other for so long, Beck and Jade, I love them as a couple, but how do they do it? I do believe in love, but not 'my' love. I know I'm Tori Vega, one of the prettiest, nicest and funniest girls at Hollywood Arts, many boys would love to date me, and I'm sure I would like to date them. The boys at HA, aren't awful looking, but I don't see a long relationship with any of them like Beck and Jade. I … never believe in my own love, because no one made me feel special. Boys using me, they are jerks. I feel so insecure, I don't know why people always do that to me. I feel hurt all the time, by these popular guys who just use me. When I watch all these romantic movies, I envy the girls. These caring guys want them and the girls just deny them, because they aren't that good looking and then she falls in love with a good looking guy who uses her…

Wait~ I've done that before, to my dear friend Robbie Shapiro.

He's nerdy and awkward, he has a puppet named Rex, a ventriloquist. Smart but clueless too. He likes Cat, but then she got this new boyfriend Eric, he's lovely. Cat has been dating him for a while, and when we have sleepovers she always says how she's in love with him, blah blah blah. He's new. So Robbie, and I have been hanging out a lot lately, sitting in the cafeteria, we always have awkward conversations, because it's only us. Andre is dating this new girl. Cat and Eric, Beck and Jade are back together, Robbie and I.

I only know now, that Robbie does like me, maybe I'm the clueless one. I have ignored Robbie, rolled him off my shoulder, and dated Ryder. Ryder the boy who used me just to get a good grade. Robbie was the first to tell me. He cared about me. Tori Vega, you stupid girl.

Robbie did make me feel special, he made me feel beautiful, he always tells me how I'm a good friend. That's how I want to feel. But what am I doing, what is this feeling? It's not love… Is it love?

Tori Vega, the prettiest girl in school. Robbie Shapiro, awkward boy who plays with a puppet. This shouldn't happen usually, I should be in love with one of those guys who looks like a superstar. Girls like me shouldn't be falling for boys like Robbie.

I'm in love… with Shapiro. Robbie Shapiro.

The next day, I knew things were about to get awkward. It was the start of lunch, and everybody was with their significant other. Jade and Beck. Cat and Eric. Andre and the new girl, I forgot her name. Who was left? Robbie and I, of course. I sit down holding a salad up to my mouth. I start to take a bite, but I am startled when someone touches my shoulder.

"Hey Tori"

It was Robbie, he seemed happier then even.

"Hey Robbie"

I try to keep cool, but Robbie was sitting so close to me. Very close. He places his water on the table and grabs a sandwich out of his bag, he smiles at me, and then takes a bite. I can hardly eat, and I can feel my hands shaking when I pick up the fork. How does he have that affect?

"Uh, I was thinking, maybe we should get sushi after school. Because… we can… talk about, the acting assignment!"

Nice one, Vega.

"I would love to Tori"

"Really? I mean cool"

"Tori are you ok?"

I can hear the concern in his voice. I really am acting more awkward, but I can't help it! It is his fault, for being so… lovely.

"I'm fine Robbie, honestly… it's just the assignment, I just don't think I can do good enough"

"Don't say that Tori, You're a great actress, I believe in you"

Fucking hell. Why does Robbie do this to me? Well he doesn't know he is doing this to me. Why am I realising just now, that Robbie Shapiro actually cares about me. More than Ryder. I am stupid, but now, now I'm in love, and awkward as ever.

"Thanks Robbie, you're a good friend, I will see you later tonight"

Just as I am about to leave, He grabs my arm. Oh fuck you Robbie, stop teasing me.

"Wait, do you want me to pick you up?"

"That would be lovely"

I stand up and leave to go to class. If only Robbie saw how big my smile was. I can't even see my face, but I know I'm smiling like an idiot.