A Homunculus's Feeling
I used to be nothing, just a lump of flesh, created in a solution beaker…
I used to see nothing, only darkness laid bare in front of my sight…
I used to hear nothing, not even a single trace of my own sound…
I used to feel nothing, only my consciousness frozen in that loneliness…
But then you gave me life, called me from the deep abyss I dwelled…
But then you gave me a form, a living body, able to feel your touch.
I still remember your face, as if seeing a miracle in front of you…
I still remember your voice, screaming that I was a success…
I still remember your tears, running down your face as a proof of happiness…
I still remember your warmth, as you hugged me for the first time…
Then you gave me a name, which you'd always call sweetly…
Then you showed me the world, so bright and beautiful.
I love you, Master, who always fed me when I'm hungry…
I love you, Master, who always threw me potions when I get hurt…
I love you, Master, who always took me to the every corner of this Rune-Midgard…
I love you, Master, who always let me be by your side…
I am grateful, Master, for everything you had done for my sake…
Now that I'm stronger, I will be the one who protect you instead.
Ah, I still love you, Master. Even if you used me as bait for stronger monsters…
Ah, I still love you, Master. Even if you ran away while I was still fighting the enemies…
Ah, I still love you, Master. Even if you cherished your friends more than me…
Ah, I still love you, Master. Even if you sometimes returned me to the dark void to be with your partner…
I still love you, Master, and I'll always do…
Just don't abandon me.
The stone glimmering with magic is in your hand. But, why are you crying, Master?
The gem made of miracle is in your hand. But, why are you crying, Master?
The crimson light of alchemy is in your hand. But, why are you crying, Master?
The Stone of Sage is in your hand. But, why are you crying, Master?
Please don't cry, Master. I really adore your smile…
Please don't hesitate.
I also wish for it, so I could be stronger…
I also wish for it, so I could support you more…
I also wish for it, so I could protect you more…
I also wish for it, so you would let me accompany you more…
Do it, Master, even if I'll lost everything…
I regret nothing.
Goodbye, my Master, thank you for giving me life…
Goodbye, my Master, thank you for giving me name…
Goodbye, my Master, thank you for giving me warmth…
Goodbye, my Master, thank you for giving me love…
I love you, Master. Thank you for everything…
Now, I'll give you back my everything.
Even if I'm reborn…
Even if I change…
Even if I forget everything…
Even if I'm not the same…
I know it will be okay, I know you'll still love me…
I know you'll teach me how to love you again…
I know it, Master.
Author note :
My first fanfic, suddenly got this inspiration in the middle of the night and I just had to write it. Months ago, I was back in RO again, albeit a private server, I made an alchemist and got a homunculus (I chose Vanilmirth) and d*mn, it's the cutest thing ever. Now I have retired and didn't get to get my Vanilmirth evolved. Writing this made me wanna go back to RO again just for feeding him and saw him bouncing…
