Disclaimer: I do not own any part or character from Gundam Wing AC.

Rating: M

Pairings: 2xH, 2x many OC's, 4x OC, 4xD, 1x OC's eventual 1x2/2x1, 3x4/4x3, 5xS or 5xR haven't decided yet, implied 6x9. And I may change certain aspects of of the series and Endless Waltz to fit my story.

Warning: Language, sexual situations, het, yaoi, lemon, lime, drugs, alcohol, addiction of many varieties, mention of past rapes/prostitution, date rape,

Notes: This is a dark angst filled fic. It is going to cover a lot of stuff that may make some readers uncomfortable. Please read the warning list carefully. Warnings will be added to the warning list as this story progresses. Each chapter is a different characters POV, it will mainly alternate between the POV's of the 5 G-boys. I will not state who it is, it will be very obvious. I will also use the POV of a minor character if I feel it's necessary. Each block of 5 chapters will be from the POV of one of the gundam pilots. So chapters 1-5 are as they read, Duo, Quatre, Wufei, Trowa, and then Heero. And each chapter order rotates around, never in the same order but always on the same timeline. With that stated, I plan on uploading 5 chapters at a time. I'll do my best to give each character equal attention and length in chapters and not favor one or two over the rest. Even though Trowa and Wufei are proving to be a pain in my ass already.

Themes I'm trying to incorporate: self acceptance, letting go of ones past, forgiving oneself, accepting ones own short comings, acceptance of failure (stuff will be added to this list, and feedback would be greatly appreciated.)

Summary: A little over a year after the Eve's War, the pilots are trying to survive during peacetime. They all struggle in their own way. Can they reconnect and save each other from themselves? Or will they destroy their own lives.


Surviving on Your Own

16 months and 9 days

Well, it's been sixteen months and nine days since I blew up my ol' buddy. Peace seems ta be doing just fine. No upheavals calling me, or the other pilots back into battle. Except for maybe Wufei, that is, if he's still with the Preventers. I really wouldn't know, we haven't stayed in touch. I haven't heard from any of them since we parted ways. I see Quat on the telly sometimes. He appears to be doing well. And of course Lena, Miss Vice Foreign Minster is always on the news. Somtimes I check out her guard detail, but I never do see Heero standing behind her.

Me, I'm killin' time, working with Hilde at Schbeiker's Salvage. It's fucking titillating work, obviously. Sometimes I wonder why I came back to the dump that is L2. I guess I came back for her. It's not like I had anyone else, or anywhere else to go. And I like her, a lot. Which is why she's my girlfriend now. She's got decent tits, and a great ass. I'm half hard just thinking about it. She's got a cute face too.

We became an item a few months after I arrived. Really started after night of drunken fucking on her living room couch. Mmm, we do that a lot, the fucking that is. But now she's starting to want more from me. Poor girl, I don't have anything more to offer ya. I wish I did. Wish I loved her too, but I don't.

Tonight, I think I'll go to a bar alone. Drown my boredom in a bottle. Fake I.D.'s are a fuckin' Godsend.