She had got all her favourite holoprogrammes copied before she left Voyager. Some she had plans for, Sandrines, Neelix luau, the Lake George, her New Earth. Leonardo's workshop. A variety of climbing and skiing programmes. The Bat'leth training programme she ran with B'Elanna, as well as 'their' cocktail bar.

She had also kept a copy of Tuvok's mutiny programme. Over the last four years she had rewritten parts, particularly a vareity of endings. The Seska subroutines were all safely removed. There was an option to travel with the Captain and help her retake the ship. For the key personel, Tuvok had added some of their personal subroutines. with information gleaned from private as well as starfleet logs. on Voyager, varying the log access date had made a huge difference to the outcome of the mutiny. Indeed, once she had moved beyond the abortive attempt to make alliance with the Trabe against the Kazon, in that difficult second year, the mutiny would no longer fly. Even if Chakotay was left unadjusted, none of the others would follow, barring Seska. In fact, it seems that mutiny was only ever a temporary possibility around the time of Bendera's death once the initial integration had taken place. Perhaps if Chakotay had pushed, there may have been a chance initially. Certainly by the time Tuvok stopped writing the programme in that first year, when he was training Chell and the others, the likelihood of mutiny was remote. She had to pause that thought to smile at the recollection of Tuvok racing around Voyager with his reluctant 'cadets'.

However, by taking some of logs from the more 'angry' months for the key personnel, for example B'Elanna after the hirogen and loss of the maquis with deleting out their personal friendship but leaving in the love story with Tom, Chakotay adding the equinox, the damage of Kashyk and the angst filled Jaffen and the anguished logs from her time with the Borg, overlaying the loss of bendera and the failed alliance it plays well and realistically. It is an almighty scrap, with some of her key staff fighting tooth and nail for her, and also some of Chakotay's. Ayala is hers really from the start, and she realises she always knew this. Baytart, however, is Chakotay's. She knows she must never let this programme be seen by the admiralty. In fact, she really should delete it.

However, playing it, substituting for the real Kathryn Janeway, or being enough Kathryn that the holo-chakotay responds to her had been a dangerous pleasure in the last year on Voyager. Oh, she still never crossed the boundaries. She had learnt that lesson far too well on the 'Irish Chakotay' she had programmed. But as he was withdrawing from her, and the crevasses in their friendship were becoming uncrossable, it gave her comfort. Here, even programmed to be as angry and hostile to her as his logs would allow, he still loved her, he still could barely bring himself to mutiny. In fact, it was only achievable by adding data to manipulate his conflicted loyalty, an encrypted promise from myself to the admiralty that the maquis would be handed over to Cardassia. Following the holo-story to the end, he realises that this is fabricated by Seska. I can't even let a holo-Chakotay believe I would betray him and my crew to that extent.

Yes, she should delete this programme, it is far too explosive if anyone else saw it.

As she sits there, a smile breaks out as she remembers the explosive passion shimmering between them in the programme. Looking at the holo-chakotay and holo-Kathryn, she can feel the sparks, and has no doubts over why the senior crew ran a book. She factored in some more pre-mutiny interaction between them, ostensibly to allow the ability to go with the Captain and set that story. She watched her hand touch his chest, and the reaction of both. Idly she muses that this could all be written as a holo adventure and romance series. requited through tom and lanna, or the unrequited until the epilogue of her own story. She grins, it seems unbelievable, even to her.

Maybe she should play this one more time.

-0-0-0-

He looks through the list of holo-programmes available to him and to download before Voyager holodecks are wiped. Everyone has their own allotted time to lay claim to loved programmes, and download a copy of the public programmes. He is the last. Mostly because he finally wants to find out what that gibe about holoprogrammes is with Seven.

When he finds it, he feels sick. Sick and angry. He tries to rationalise Seven's behaviour, and nearly succeeds. She needed to practise relationships, for siprits sake she broke an arm before! But she clearly had to alter his programme significantly to get him to date her. He feels physically sick at his lapdog sweetness, and more sick when he remembers their actual dates. Damn, but he was so foolish, lost. When her realises Seven must have read and plundered a fair number of his personal logs relating to Kathryn, and then swapped the names, he becomes angry all over again. He remembered the log he wrote about Kathryn cooking an imaginary successful dinner. It had made him smile, as the original was a burnt offering. Though at least vegetarian! He remembered Kathryn talking about her wish to play the piano, and he must have written it into a log. He doesn't keep the programme, but deletes it. It takes a while for him to rationalise it and forgive Seven. It will take him quite a lot longer to forgive himself for the Seven fiasco, and this is an additional pointer to his stupidity. He then needs to deal with his anger with Kathryn. He will probably need to talk to her about it. He can understand that she managed and forgave Seven, though clearly found it difficult. However, she should have been called on her dereliction of duty and her near holo addiction. But he should have told her, so that he could avoid the following entanglement. Even as he thinks this, he knows it to be unfair. She was right not to tell him. She hid it with all her strongest codes, unfortunately for her he had cracked them all within the first year. He grimaces. It is deleted.

He looks at his list, tempted to delete them all in his temporary anger with all things hologram. Disgust with holo moves his mind onto a love rival that he sickeningly encouraged. He uses Kathryn's codes to see her downloads, and is very relieved not to see fair haven in there. A quick look down her short list, and he grins at Tuvok's programme, he is pleased it still exists, even if he can never see the mutiny happening. He pushed her hard on occasion, particularly around the Kazon, his actions around the Borg when they picked up Seven were a direct contravention of her orders, but he was acting captain then. he didn't mutiny even at equinox. He isn't going to consider Teero anymore. He looks further at the list, he sees sandrines, neelix's beach programmes and smiles, he needn't download those then. He recognises many on the list. There is one though, and he cannot help but open it. Spread before him is New Earth. not as they left it. It has a log cabin extension to the housing module , a vegetable garden and a boat by the river. He can hear the sound of carpentry, and cannot help but look and then laugh. It is himself, shirt off, sweating as he is busy building something. He closes and leaves Kathryn's list. He isn't angry that she has his hologram here, as he would have to censor himself.

He opens up his new earth program. There are many similarities with Kathryn's, but he has built a lodge more similar to his people. Kathryn will be in the module, it is her laboratory and office. He also carves here, things for her, their lodge is full of carved items, he has worked out his love for her here. Did he cross that line? Ah, so very nearly, but no. Was he tempted? So much so that he had to stop using the programme, or delete the other character the moment it opened. He is sure that Kathryn did not cross that line either. Neither of them could have hidden that in their interactions. He smiles as he freezes the programme, and takes one final look before closing.

In the end, he downloads his new Earth programme, his boxing programme and leaves it there. He has never been a solitary user of holoprogrammes. He came to close to misuse as a lonely cadet. It cuts you off from reality if you escape too often.

-0-0-0-

He looks at the list, and the holodeck doors open, he doesn't even need to turn and smile.

'All done?' she asks. he can hear a slight note of worry in her voice.

'I looked' he says, obliquely, to the room.

As he turns, he sees a hint of a blush and a stance of defensiveness. He shrugs. 'it was your call, but I wish you had told me'

At this she grins, and looks relieved 'If I had the power of foresight I would have. I tore strips off the doctor, and banned Seven from holodeck use unsupervised. I should have extracted a promise that she would leave you alone! I was so jealous. It clouded my judgement' She pouts and looks at him from the corner of her eyes with a flutter. He shouts a laugh. She is terrible, as soon as she knew he had forgiven her she is flirting again.

He swoops her into a passionate kiss. 'you are only just forgiven' and she huffs a laugh even then.

'we could' she says breathlessly pushing him away for the moment 'make this rather more... comfortable. After all, no one else is up here?'

'since you put it that way, it would be churlish not to, did you have something in mind Kathryn?' And he can tell from her smile that she absolutely does.