{lily, sweetie, hate to say

you're falling, honey,

falling hard.}

[what? absolutely not.]

s.e.v.e.n.t.h y.e.a.r

and you hate him, right?

no, he's kind of funny.

{lily, baby, you're already done and gone.}

[heart, i don't want your opinion right now]

the first time you call him james you don't notice

his face breaks into a dorky (endearing? hush, heart) grin.

during christmas break, you attend tuney's wedding

and you find yourself missing him

and it's s.t.r.a.n.g.e and OBVIOUS

tuney privately celebrates her sister's first real love.

{oh, lily, sweetheart, everyone knows already.}

[shut UP]

but he's not asking anymore

and the light that used to be in his eyes whenever he was around you has gone out

and it scares you

no, it terrifies you.

what if he doesn't like you anymore?

curse your stupid heart and your stubborn mouth

{lily, sugar, he loves you with all his heart.

he's just as scared as you are, honey}

[please shut up, leave me alone]

and you're dancing careful circles around each other

until hestia and alice drag you away for a makeover

(what?)

and then you walk into the common room in heels and makeup

and he's staring at you with unconcealed adoration.

(is that lily evans? when did she get so hot?)

{go on, darling, now's your chance}

[heart, if you're wrong]

and you're thinking it's NOW or n.e.v.e.r

and you hurryto him

and you K^I^S^S him hard on the mouth

{there you go, sweetheart, he loves you, he does}

he kisses you back, sirius is collecting winnings, but you don't care all that matters is that james is finally here, kissing you, and you're not pushing him away and you've fallen, but that's okay, because he caught you, and all you can think is finally.