Chapter 1 enjoy sorry its so small :)


I lay in bed, Speechless. Alone. Empty, with his voice lingering in my mind. Like it does everyday

All my hope and happiness is pretty much gone. All I have left is family and my best friend. Jacob Black…. Well use to be best friend.

I haven't seen him in a while, he's been off and he left La Push 9 months ago, to "clear" this mind, but I think he just couldn't take the loss of his father, Billy Black.

We are kinda in the same boat, that way, losing things that mean the most to us.

I wish I could just leave, like he did, disappear, live in a hole or under a rock for the rest if my life and not care who I hurt doing it. But sadly I'm not selfish like that. I couldn't leave Charlie; I don't know how he lived before I moved in with him. He can't even cook eggs. And Renee is already going mad, with me living forks. To her its like I'm across the world. Forks did have a plus side. But that plus side left me here.

I look my window, as the wild blows my curtains. I always leave it open hoping, pleading, waiting for him to come back.
To jump threw that window. To lay with me, to sing me to sleep with the lullaby he wrote me. I can almost remember it.

But its not the same, it will never be the same.

Im doing it again! … I need to forget. But I don't want too. but I cant keep feeling like this! Im going crazy, I need to move on. I need to become selfish and I need to do something drastic.


sorry guys that its short im sorry!

im just getting my ideas flowing and the next chapter should be up very soon!

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