Authors note: Ok, so if you guys are apart of the small group of my readers that read all my stuff, then you probably have noticed that I go through phases. When I started out on this site it was Teen titans, then it was Inuyasha, then it was Alice in Wonderland, then it was V for Vendetta, Then fruits Basket and now it's death note. Get use to it lol. And if you aren't a loyal reader of mine, please just enjoy this poem (Actually, is this even a poem? Its kinda like a story poem lol) in Near's POV!
Peace in!
Melanie Swirls!
Title: Confessions
Rated: because I don't think little kids would understand
If I could have anything in the world,
It would be to be like Mello.
He really doesn't know what he's got.
Now I'm not saying I want to be in a mafia,
I'm not really interested in leather,
And I'm not one for a gun,
But if I could take his emotions,
Even just for one day,
I'd take it without looking back.
And I probably would have to be killed to give them back.
~.~
I really want to feel again,
To be able to take down this mask of indifference,
And actually feel what it's like to be alive.
Now I'm not saying I hate being the new L,
And I'm completely ok with hiding behind a computer,
But if I could just have one friend,
One person, in this world who understands me
My life would be complete,
And I could die without any mistakes,
~.~
I'm aware that it'll probably never happen,
But I want to meet a girl,
Not like the ones from whammy's,
I want to meet a real girl,
One that wouldn't be expecting me to get everything right,
One that can laugh and smile,
And hide the indifference for a while.
But that will never happen, I know.
~.~
Mock me if you will,
But I do want to get married,
I want to love someone, like I once could.
I want to be with someone, like I should.
I want to be able to care, I really would.
But that can't happen,
Because no one loves a mask of indifference.
~.~
I want to be angry,
Furious even would be ok,
And I want to just so I can say I have,
Maybe even brag a little bit about it later,
Anger… I like the way it sounds.
Maybe I'll have to attempt to try it out.
~.~
There are so many things
I haven't said, or felt or tried.
So many things I'll never do,
And I'm tired,
Of being just a name without a face.
~.~
So many superficial connections,
So many lies, so many deceptions,
Why is love so hopeless?
Why am I so thoughtless?
~.~
I don't want to live a life,
With no reason to live,
A pointless matter, of pointless things.
~.~
My name was Nate Rivers,
That's without the mask.
~.~
Near. N. L. I already know my task.
Authors note: I hope you liked it, review if you did, review if you didn't, I don't care, though id prefer if you explain why you didn't like it and stuff.
Peace in!
Melanie Swirls!
