Authors note: Ok, so if you guys are apart of the small group of my readers that read all my stuff, then you probably have noticed that I go through phases. When I started out on this site it was Teen titans, then it was Inuyasha, then it was Alice in Wonderland, then it was V for Vendetta, Then fruits Basket and now it's death note. Get use to it lol. And if you aren't a loyal reader of mine, please just enjoy this poem (Actually, is this even a poem? Its kinda like a story poem lol) in Near's POV!

Peace in!

Melanie Swirls!

Title: Confessions

Rated: because I don't think little kids would understand

If I could have anything in the world,

It would be to be like Mello.

He really doesn't know what he's got.

Now I'm not saying I want to be in a mafia,

I'm not really interested in leather,

And I'm not one for a gun,

But if I could take his emotions,

Even just for one day,

I'd take it without looking back.

And I probably would have to be killed to give them back.

~.~

I really want to feel again,

To be able to take down this mask of indifference,

And actually feel what it's like to be alive.

Now I'm not saying I hate being the new L,

And I'm completely ok with hiding behind a computer,

But if I could just have one friend,

One person, in this world who understands me

My life would be complete,

And I could die without any mistakes,

~.~

I'm aware that it'll probably never happen,

But I want to meet a girl,

Not like the ones from whammy's,

I want to meet a real girl,

One that wouldn't be expecting me to get everything right,

One that can laugh and smile,

And hide the indifference for a while.

But that will never happen, I know.

~.~

Mock me if you will,

But I do want to get married,

I want to love someone, like I once could.

I want to be with someone, like I should.

I want to be able to care, I really would.

But that can't happen,

Because no one loves a mask of indifference.

~.~

I want to be angry,

Furious even would be ok,

And I want to just so I can say I have,

Maybe even brag a little bit about it later,

Anger… I like the way it sounds.

Maybe I'll have to attempt to try it out.

~.~

There are so many things

I haven't said, or felt or tried.

So many things I'll never do,

And I'm tired,

Of being just a name without a face.

~.~

So many superficial connections,

So many lies, so many deceptions,

Why is love so hopeless?

Why am I so thoughtless?

~.~

I don't want to live a life,

With no reason to live,

A pointless matter, of pointless things.

~.~

My name was Nate Rivers,

That's without the mask.

~.~

Near. N. L. I already know my task.

Authors note: I hope you liked it, review if you did, review if you didn't, I don't care, though id prefer if you explain why you didn't like it and stuff.

Peace in!

Melanie Swirls!