I begin to lose track of time injecting Crowley with my purified blood trying to give him the demon-cure and completing the final trails and close the gates for good. Crowley tried making a blood spell to call upon other for help part way through his abduction and fail as soon as I saw what he tried doing and stopped it. Into hour three theirs signs in Crowley reverting to a kinda human demeanor and becoming cured.
One more and it's done.
The doors of the broken down chapel burst open with Dean at the threshold, looking disheveled and tired, I can see in the look in his eye he finally knows that after I complete this trials I`ll be too far gone to stop and my whole being hurts with every breath I take as my insides are slowly starting to burn.
"SAM, you can't go through with these trials or it`ll kill you". Dean says with fear lacing through his gruff voice.
Leaving Crowley where he sits I turn fully to Dean. "So?". I say with emotion in my voice, too exhausted to give more reason behind my doings.
"Do you want to know what I confessed in there? What my greatest sin was?"
Dean looks at me with regret in his eyes for a brief moment, to anyone else who was his brother and grew up with him, wouldn't of noticed it in that split second.
"It was how many times I've let you down." I say with a shake in my voice, i know Dean has always but more first above everything and everyone, hell at four years old he had to grow up and raise his baby brother instead of have a childhood.
He just stands there motionless for a moment, good I think to myself. It's about time he learns that I need to do these trails and not just because it's needed. I can feel the effects of the trails wearing me down, the glowing in my veins showing how close i am to the goal of closing the gates to HELL, if I wait around any longer I know I wont be able to complete this last part.
Curing a demons humanity.
"What happens when you `ve decided I can't be trusted again? I mean, who are you going to turn to next time instead of me? Another angel? Another vampire?. I asked Dean with sorrow in my eyes remember how he show someone else (Benny) over his own brother.
"Don't you dare think there is anything PAST or PRESENT that I would put in front of you!". Dean croakes out.
"It's never been like that, ever. I need you to see that. I`m begging you"!. Dean rambles on and on about this brotherly love and everytime he manages to get me to put aside the good the world for more time with him so he doesn't have to be alone. And I just can't do that again, so many people who love have always been thrown into the firing line because of it and I'm sick of having to bury them.
Yet we're still here?
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