My take on what feelings Yoshiki might have if he ever read a loving hide/Yoshiki fiction.
Yoshiki absentmindedly roamed through the mass amounts of fan pages, hesitating as he read out loud... "Yoshiki and hide, rated M for-" He mumbled out a few words to comfort himself and the cursor hovered over the little link. He pressed down slowly on the smooth mouse and it decided for him, automatically clicking.
His hand drew back and it felt as if someone had struck him, until finally Yoshiki uncovered his face and took a deep breath. Reading silently and solemnly, word after word seemed to smother his heart. Talk of kisses, seduction, and sex... he could handle thoughts like that, because he knew that himself and Hideto had never done anything of the sort. But as the aftermath unfolded, his clench on the chair tightened.
"hide slowly felt tears falling down as he held onto Yoshiki, embracing him warmly. "I love you.", he said, looking up and capturing Yoshiki's loving gaze, "I love you..." The drummer shyly but openly replied, feeling tears of his own begin to fall. "I never thought I could feel this, I mean.. I never thought that someone would want to hold me like this..." Yoshiki smiled as his words ended with hide's kiss. His pink haired love smiled at him happily, "I'll never leave you Yo-kun."
Yoshiki's tired eyes had shown their share of sadness as he finally managed to close out the window. He let out a long, constant sigh, something he'd grown accustomed to over the last three years. That was not what he needed today, he didn't need that ever..
Leaning back in the chair, he looked around the white room, the white room next to it, and down the white hallways in his house. "If for you to stay, hide, I would have had to make love to you, and kiss you..." He paused, No, he thought, For you to feel like you'd never want to leave... Yoshiki looked up, a rising feeling coming through him as he raised an open hand to the white ceiling, "I would have, hide-kun, because without you, life has no color."
He's been sighing for the last three years... I meant that because he seems to be very busy since 2005. Violet UK, S.K.I.N., producing, interviews... So busy. So, explained :) I can hear him in my mind saying that last line, it was really hard finding the right words. Also, doesn't he speak like that, saying things sort of opposite how a fluent speaker would?. . I think that if Yoshiki had any doubts about anything, it'd be that maybe he wasn't doing his best for hide during that year, or as a friend. He wrote on a picture's subtitle of a hide plushie and himself, "My Best Friend..." and... I believe that if he knew in '98 that that horrible thing would happen, Yoshiki would feel more for hide than friendship. I'm not saying I think that Yoshiki is in love with him, but love can make you do strange things that you wouldn't normally even consider. So... This is what I think.
