Hey guys! so this is my first fanfic. and well, i really hope you like it. and uhm, reviews would be AWESOME! and yeah. so hope you enjoy it and your input will be MUCH appreciated:) Thanks a bunch!
--Sheena
Chapter One: Permission
"Are you ready, my love?" Edward, my vampire fiancé, asked me in his smooth, cool voice that could be recognized anywhere. As we walked up to the front steps to Charlie's house I started to think. In my head, I knew I had to be ready, however, in my heart I didn't know if I truly was. Don't get me wrong, I loved Edward more than anything. But was I really ready to be married?
"As ready as I'll ever be." I replied.
"You know you don't have to do this. I love you beyond words, but you really don't have to. I can wait. Just in return, you also have to wait."
Edward knew that this wasn't an option I was about to take. He could ask me a million times more than he already had, and I still wouldn't be willing to wait any longer. I wanted to become a vampire, and I wanted him to change me. It wouldn't be the same if I were to get Carlisle to do it. But I did understand where Edward was coming from, in ways.
So with Edward's arm around me, I opened the door. "Hey Bells! Where have you been? I woke up to find a note on the kitchen table saying you went out. I really wish you'd woken me up." Charlie was sitting down at the old, rickety table we'd had for ages, eating a bowl of cereal while reading the paper.
"Sorry about that Charlie, I just got back from a trip with Jasper and Emmett and stopped by to take Bella out for some breakfast." Edward was very convincing while he said this, his eyes or expression revealing nothing amiss. The truth was that I was never even home last night; I stayed with Edward and the rest of the Cullens at their house. I did this quite often, but normally I would have been back about an hour and a half before Charlie had woken up. This time however, Edward wanted him awake, so he could ask permission to take my hand in marriage.
"Oh, Okay. You know Bella, you really should go on one of the Cullen's camping trips one day. I'm sure you'd have a blast."
"Come on Dad, you know me, I hate anything that has to do with the outdoors. Aside from the occasional hike here and there." The only hikes I like to go on are when we go up to the meadow where I can see Edward shine like nothing else in the world. "And even then, Edward pretty much drags me along. Half the time he has to piggyback me too. I'm sure the Cullens would hate me being there.
"But before we get too into this subject, Edward and I need to talk to you." Oh jeeze, now I was really getting nervous. But I just wanted to get this done and over with.
"Okay Bella, if you're pregnant, please don't tell me, I really don't think I would be able to control myself. You're much too young to have a baby. Besides, think of how your mother would feel. I refuse to be a grandpa just yet, later on in life maybe. But please don't tell me that you're pregnant." Charlie was talking incredibly fast, embarrassment and nervousness showing through in his words. If only he knew that Edward wouldn't even try to have sex with me until after we were married. And even then, he still would rather wait until after I was officially a vampire.
"Dad, I'm not pregnant. You don't have to worry about that. But I would like to talk to you about something very important." As I said this, I grabbed a seat on the opposite side of the table with Edward beside me, holding my hand under the table. Charlie did not agree with public displays of affection what-so-ever, and to him, holding hands were included. At least when it came to Edward and me.
Charlie shifted in his seat a little bit, and I felt a gentle squeeze of support on my hand. "Dad, I love Edward, you know that. And Edward loves me. Despite what you may think or feel. Now, Edward and I have been together for almost two years, which I know isn't that long of a time. But our love for each other is real, and I know this for a fact. So basically, what I'm saying is that we would like your blessings to… to get married." I stopped there, so that Charlie could take all this in. I knew that for a father, hearing your eighteen year old daughter asking for your blessing to get married to a boy who has only been her boyfriend for a year and seven months was exceptionally hard.
"Bella, I really don't think that this is a good idea. It was only, what, six months ago that this boy came back after leaving you here practically dead on your feet! I mean, what about Jake? I thought you two were really hitting it off! Now, I don't believe that Edward doesn't love you, but I really think you guys should wait a bit. You both don't know how long this will really last."
"With all due respect Charlie, my love for Bella will never die." He meant that quite literally… "Bella is my world; she is everything and anything that I've ever wanted in my life. And that will never change. Bella and I are meant to be together. Even you must see that by now. I know that both Carlisle and Esme see it already. And they are both fine with having Bella officially become part of the family. But if you would like, we could put it off until next summer."
Sharply, I looked at Edward; there was no way that I was going to wait any longer for this to happen.
"No! Edward, I love you! You love me! Charlie should be happy that I've found someone for me that he's never had!" Ouch, that last bit probably pushed it overboard. I mean, it's true and everything, but that should not have come out. Oops. Instantly, I started to apologize. "Oh no Dad, I am sosorry! It's just that I do want this to happen. I love Edward more than anything else on this planet. He is my life, and I am his. He's proven himself to you since he's left and come back, hasn't he?"
"Look Bells, you're my only daughter. I don't you to end up like me. I only want you to be happy. Just…..just let me think this over. And do me a favor? Please think it over for yourself as well. Just make sure that you think of all your options, Including the Jacob option. He's a good kid Bells. I know he's younger than you, but he really doesn't act like he is. At times, he even acts older than you."
"I guess I could Dad. But no promises, since I know Edward's the one and only man for me." I thought that was a fair response. I could tell it was by the nice deep breath from Edward and then the gentle squeeze of reassurance on my hand. I hadn't been lying either when I said I would consider Jacob. Jake had been on my mind a lot lately. With him on my mind - which worried me - made me want to speed this wedding up…a lot.
"Now Charlie, would you mind it if me and Bella took a little walk and went out for a bit? I'm thinking it may be a good way for the both of you, and me for that matter, to really think things over and consider all of our options." I wish I could be as calm as Edward when it came to Charlie.
"No way!" I gave Charlie a look. Charlie sighed. "Well, I guess so. Be back before 4:00 p.m. though. We both know that if I cook again, we probably won't have much of a house."
"Yep, sure, fine. See you later Dad." I'm sure that both Charlie and Edward heard the anger and attitude in my voice. It was weird, but at that moment, I wanted nothing more than to be with Jake. Jacob Black always had a way of making all of my worries, problems and fears disappear.
Walking away quickly before I received yet another lecture from Charlie about my 'bad attitude,' I thought back to the days when things were a lot less complicated. Lately, Charlie seemed to think that when I didn't get my own way, I gave him a bad attitude. And well, I frankly wasn't in the mood to hear it.
Instantly, Edward was at my side as soon as Charlie shut the door.
"So you've been thinking of the dog quite a bit lately, I assume?" Edward knew that I hated it whenever he called Jake the dog. "Oops, sorry, I meant Jacob."
"Ugh, Edward! You know that I hate that! If it's not Jake calling you a leech or a bloodsucker, it's you calling him a dog. Like I told you before…"
"Bells, I'm sorry." Edward cut me off as he stepped in front of me, causing me to run into him.
"Ouch! Ugh. Edward! Just….just…why did you say we would wait? I'm not willing to wait! You know that! You think that if you keep on putting it off that I'll change my mind and remain human, well I won't! I'm not changing my mind! So just get used to it already! You have to understand that I love you! And I'm not willing to wait any longer to be with you officially for eternity and beyond. So I'm not going to fall for your tricks!" Wow. I don't think I've ever been able to yell at Edward before. At least not like this. My hands shook as they balled into fists at my sides.
Then it clicked. Edward knew something that I didn't. He knew what Charlie was going to say. Edward would never try to upset me like this. As soon as I realized that he knew about Charlie's compliance, Edward could tell I had become conscious of the fact. A big huge grin spread across his perfect face.
"Wait…is Charlie going to say yes?!" Edward smiled larger and took my hands, – which were no longer shaking - his eyes smoldering. "Oh my gosh Edward! We're going to get married! We actually are going to get married! I can't believe it! You know, up until this point I thought I was never going to be happy about it. But now that we actually are going to, I'm kind of excited about it! Oh Alice is going to be so pleased!"
"Actually Bella, I was. But now, it seems that there may be a change in plans, but it's kind of blurry. It seems as though someone keeps changing their mind. So now none of my visions are clear. And I think it has to do with the wolves, or at least one of the options, because at times I can't see anything," a small voice from behind me said.
"Alice! What do you mean? No one will change their mind. I'm not going to, and Charlie is obviously going to say yes! Oh, I'm so excited! You can be my maid of honor and everything! You'll still plan everything, right?"
"No, Bella, this doesn't have to do with Charlie, he's going to still say yes." She shook her head in disappointment, and Edward glanced down at me curiously. "It actually has to do with your decision; it would seem your future isn't set in stone."
So now that the first chapter is over...REVIEW PLEASE! It would help me SO much with the next chapter. then I can see if the direction I'm going is the right one to be going:p
