A/N: Thank you to everyone who read my first Twilight piece, Dancing Through Life. This story would essentially take place during Breaking Dawn. As I mentioned in my author's note for Dancing Through Life, if I were to write something for Twilight, I wanted to be able to get the characters how they truly are. Therefore I was refraining from writing anything like this, but then I got the idea and I am proud of how it turned out. It's much, much shorter than Dancing Through Life but hopefully it still captures the characters. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I do not own the Twilight series or any of its characters.
Thorns of Doubt
It was painful. I could see every time she wavered. He had no idea. I was very careful to hide these thoughts from him. If he knew she was having doubts, he'd never want to go through with it. And who knows what that could cause. The worst part about it, though, was that I began having doubts too. It was so confusing. Both options had a happy ending. Was it wrong to condemn her to this when she had another equally as good option? Were we going against fate by doing such a thing?
Horrible as it was, I started hoping for something that would put her near death. If it was condemn her or let her die, the decision was clear cut. But we'd already passed that point. Not only had she been at death's door, but it seemed like the decision to condemn her had already been made for us. The venom had been in her system. If he had just added a few more bites to speed up the process…
But he saved her. Which, I suppose, was the right thing to do. At least this way she gets to say goodbye to her family and being human. But it's giving her time for second thoughts! And that dumb dog! He's shown her the other side. She has two great futures ahead of her. One is natural. The other is, I guess, going against fate. However, it is her choice. She's choosing her future, her fate. So is it really so wrong if we're just giving her what she wants?
I suppose there are some selfish motivations behind it. He loves her. He wants to be with her forever and forever is limited while she stays human. And it would be so much easier for him if she weren't. I'm being selfish too. I want her to be part of the family. I want her as my sister. We've become such close friends. Then…there is the fact that I saw her becoming one of us and, well, I don't enjoy being wrong. It's something I'm not so used to. Also, none of us want to have to see her die. But then again, becoming one of us is death as well. But at least she'll be alright after this death.
She looked beautiful in her wedding dress, but I could see the nervousness bubbling up inside of her. I sidled over to her and put my arm around her waist. "You look beautiful," I told her.
"Thanks," she whispered. She turned from our mirror reflections to look at me. I did the same, giving her a reassuring smile. "Alice?"
"Yes?"
She hesitated and I could tell she wasn't going to ask her original question. "Will everything turn out alright at the wedding?" she asked instead.
I paused and looked for the answer. After a moment I was able to confirm, "Yes, yes it will."
"So he's not going to try to…?" she trailed off, but I knew what she was talking about.
"I can see your happy wedding so nope!" I chirped, trying to elevate her mood.
"Alice?" she said again.
"Yes, Bella?"
She took a deep breath and I knew the true worry was coming this time. "Am I doing the right thing?" she questioned.
I froze. "I-I can't answer that for you, Bella," I breathed. "But," I quickly amended as her expression grew even more concerned, "I can help you figure it out. Do you love him?"
"Of course!" Bella exclaimed, her eyes growing wide.
"More than anyone and anything else in the world?"
"Yes. With all my heart."
"Is this what you want?"
"I could've done with waiting to get married and a smaller wedding," she pointed out. We both laughed. Then she grew quiet. I waited expectantly. "But," she began slowly, "yes, this is exactly what I want."
I smiled brilliantly, relieved. "Great! Then let's go get you married!" I declared.
She smiled back. I took her hand and led her to the door. We paused in the doorway, to give her a moment to prepare. She took a deep breath. "Thank you, Alice," she whispered, so quietly a normal person wouldn't have heard it. "For everything." I gave her hand a very gentle squeeze before opening the door. We had a wedding to catch.
A/N: Thanks for reading! I'd love to hear your feedback! This story will have a second "chapter," but it's not really a new chapter. You'll see. :) I hope you all enjoyed my second Twilight fic and, again, I'd love to hear what you think! Thanks!
-TheaterBug-
