DISCLAIMER: I do not own Twilight or any of Stephenie's Characters.
Chapter One: Morning Sadness.
Cut my eyes on visions of you
Memories aren't clear
I lost touch with the boy I knew
While you were still here
Have you met your god?
Does he know I'm in pain?
Does he even have any plans
For me to see you again?
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
Damage done by a lost loved one
You can never forget
Questioning my faith in God
I know evil exists
So I look past the sky
It's where we're going tonight
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
Tonight
On a mission to find her in heaven
Maybe we'll get to sleep next to God tonight
There's a razor with my name
It carves my life away
And I'll find out who's real
Right now
Morning sadness
So we meet again
Pack your bags 'cause we're leaving
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a heart that has suffered
It's the only way
To untie the pain
From a mind that is strangled
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EPOV
I stood next to Bella as she recived news that her father was dead. She collapsed on her knees and I kneeled down taking her in my arms as she sobbed. She sobbed uncontrollably and I felt my own tears rolling down my face. I held her, keeping her as together as possible, but how together could you be when you've just found out your father is gone forever? She was Broken and i couldn't do anything to stop her pain, only be here for her.
I looked up at my family and our friends. Esme, so loving and caring was being held by Carlisle as she sobbed into his white shirt. He'd been off duty at the Hospital today, of all days, when his bestfriend dies. He was trying to keep it together, always so strong. I could see the pain in his eyes, and it broke my heart. Charlie and Carlisle had grown up together, and i knew my dad would have wanted to be there for Charlie durring his last moments...
Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie were there too. Alice Leaning on Jasper, Rose leaning on Emmett, and Bella... leaning on me. The way I've always wanted things... but never this way. I've wanted to be more than friends with Bella ever since I could remember. She only sees me as a friend. She's dated so many guys, usually assholes and I can't stand the sight of her with anyone but me. I can't make her love me though, let alone like me, but I love her. She's a spunky girl with a big heart. She's the one for me, but funny how things never work out for me.
Our senior year is almost over and I still haven't gotten one acceptance letter. I lost my job at the food market a few days ago, because I was accused of stealing food from the storage room, but I didn't do anything wrong. Now I know my dad is a doctor and all, but that doesn't mean I don't have to have a job. I like, or in this case, liked working. It kills time and looks good on college applications, atleast i thought it would. School wise, i have decent grades, so its killing me that I haven't recieved anything.
"Edward." Carlisle said and I looked up at him. "Get Bella out of here." He said and walked away towards where a few other doctors were walking headed towards an elevator. Esme was instantly smothered in hugs from Rose and Alice. I made sure I had a good grip on Bella's waist and tried to pull her up but she shoved me away.
"No! I don't want to leave him!" She yelled staying on the floor, her face in her hands as she sobbed.
I wasn't shocked in the very least, I was expecting her to get all hard headed with the situation. She had every right to be angry with me and everyone else. I got that she wasn't ready to leave, but we couldn't leave her on the floor like this. I looked up at Jasper and Emmett. They instantly came to help me drag her out. We lifted her up, she shoved and kicked and punched and once we were in the elevator she screamed into my shirt and her body went limp in my arms as she slumped her shoulders and sobbed louder than she had the first time. "Why now? Why him?" She kept saying... I held her tight against my chest and stroked her hair or rubbed her back, letting her know I was there for her. I didn't say anything though, nobody did. Everyone was heartbroken with the sight of Bella, Isabella Swan broken before our eyes. We were all used to happy and outgoing Bella, never had we seen her cry. Except for the time when they'd diagnosed her father with cancer, and now he was gone.
Authors Note: This whole story is pretty much going to be based on songs from my favorite band of all time MADINA LAKE and every chapter will have it's own song. The story will jump in time alot. Like sometimes it can skip years, but ill explain what happens between the time. Some of the chapters will also be based on songs from a few of my other favorite bands like Mayday Parade & The Used. :) But it will mostly be MADINA LAKE. I have ideas on where I want this story to go, and it has alot of twists and turns. I hope you'll enjoy. REVIEWS?
