Waking up without you

It doesn't feel right

To sleep with only memories

It's harder every night

Sometimes I think I can feel you breathing down my neck

It had been a year since it happened. Since he left. I can't sleep at night knowing that he's not going to be there. Only having my dreams of his beautiful face. His raven hair. I can't do it. Anymore I don't even try to sleep. I go out. Out to the woods were we met. Where my life changed forever. It's kind funny, actually. I imagine his sweet, sweet laughter filling my head. It makes me feel like he's right next to me.

Tonight I'm reaching out to the stars

I think that he owes me a favor

It doesn't matter where you are

I'll hold you again

I kneeled down in the small clearing, tears flooding my face. I looked up into the star-filled night. I remembered all the times that we watched the stars. Most of the time I would point out the constellations. Sometimes he would ask for the stories behind them. I would recall each story and it to my eager listener. Other times we would talk about what we wanted in our future. But I never told him that what I wanted the most was him. And after I hurt him like that, he would assume it was a lie. Then the rest of the time we sat in silence enjoying the presence of one another.

I screamed to the goddesses, though I doubt they heard me. "WHY, WHY, WHY!? ALL OF THEM GET A HAPPY ENDING! RED AND BLUE, GREEN AND ZELDA! WHY NOT ME AND SHADOW!?" I shouted, hoping for my prayers to be heard. I bent down and banged on the ground. I would never let the other see me like this.

I wish I could hear your voice

And don't leave me alone in this bed

I wish I could touch you once more

And don't leave me alone in this bed

Not tonight, not tomorrow

I let my feeling show. I cried my heart out, only to do it again tomorrow. I'm surprised I haven't been dehydrated yet, not like I care. I remember the sound of his voice. Music to my ears. Once, I had a nightmare while I was there. I heard me and came running in to see what was wrong. I was weeping, curled up in a ball. I can't recall what the nightmare was though. He sat down on my bed and pulled me into his arms. He murmured soft, soothing words into my ear, ushering me back to sleep. 'I wouldn't mind have a nightmare if this what happens….' I thought, slowly being pulled back into the dream world. I woke up the next morning with him holding me close, gently caressing my back. He had gotten under the covers, tucking me in too. I lightly smiled and nuzzled his chest. When he woke up and finally realized what was going on, he denied everything, saying he had just fallen asleep. We laughed about that for hours, teasing each other the whole time. Oh how I wish he would save me up from this nightmare I'm in now. Then we would be together. But fate is too cruel for me.

I've got a feeling that this will never cease

Living in these pictures

It never comes with ease

I swear if I could make this right

You'd be back by now

I loved him. I never told him. I let the opportunity pass right by. Now he's gone and I'm stuck with these memories. Torturous memories about my love. It's not easy… Living this cruel fate that was forced upon. When I started my journey I would have done anything to save Hyrule. I would have teamed up with the evil… Trick them…. But now… I'm not so sure about that. Because of me my love is dead. The true hero of Hyrule that no one will know. I remember when the dragon burned him. I held him close and wrapped his wounds. He claimed that he didn't need my help but I could tell he was thankful.

Tonight I'm screaming out to the stars

He knows he owns me a favor

It doesn't matter where you are

You'll be mine again

I screamed up to the shies for hours that night. It was one year since he died. And I couldn't stand it. Life without him was torture. Why couldn't the goddesses take me instead? I screamed to them. For taking my love while all the others got their love story. Their happy ending. They lost nothing. I lost everything. Shadow sacrificed it all. For what? He wasn't he mentioned at the ceremony for saving Hyrule. Not even a thank you. And now he's gone… But he'll always be mine. Wherever he is. I'll be there with him soon enough.

I wish I could hear your voice

Don't leave me alone in this bed.

I wish I could touch you once more

Don't leave me alone in this bed

Oh how I long to hear him. His laugh, his cry, even his rants about ruling Hyrule. I miss his smile. His bright, joyful smile. His evil, cunning smile. How I wish I could hold him in my arms! Feel the warmth of his skin. See his beautiful scarlet eyes shining in the dark. But my heart his cold without him by my side. My bed is empty without his arms wrapped around my waist. Everything is upside without him. A mess. And all he left me was heartbreak and tears. Emptiness and sorrow. There's a hole in my heart. One that can only be filled by a certain little shadow.

What about the plans that we had

We'd be crazy not to go

Meet me in capeside

We made so many plans about our future. We were gonna rule Hyrule together. But then it was me who ruined it all. Shattered our dreams. All for what? Hyrule. It is important. But what about the hole in my heart? Me sinking into depression? Is that not important too? I guess not. The only time I am happy is capeside (1). There he is alive. It would be absolutely insane not to love he world where my dark love lives. Too bad it's all just a dream…

I wish I can hear your voice
And don't leave me alone in this bed
I wish I could touch you once more
And don't leave me alone in this bed

Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed
Don't leave me alone, don't leave me alone
Don't leave me alone in this bed


AN: (1) I am referring to capeside as a dream.

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