I have finally made it to this moment. This moment in time, determining the fate of the world. Right here, right now, I get to decide whether SERN takes over the world. It took me everything to get here. Countless repeats, endless time loops. I have given my friends exactly what they wanted and took it away from them at the same time. Now, I'm committing murder. Or is it assisted suicide? Who knows at this point… All I know is at the end of today, Mayuri would be saved at the cost of Kurisu, my most important… no I will not think like this. I cannot think like this. If I continue this train of thought, I won't be able to do it. Right, its time. I step in front of the computer and Daru, the fires of determination burning in my eyes.
"After fending off the many plots against us…"
The speech is dramatic, exactly like how I imagined it, but it still feels empty. It feels like my blood is mercury, the coldness seeping into my bones, a pit opening in my stomach.
"And holding true to our convictions…"
Empty. Empty. Empty. Empty. Empty.
"We have, at long last, prevailed in the battle of Ragnarok!"
Prevailed? Aren't I just running away? My voice wavers. I clench my eyes shut and look to the ceiling.
"I am grateful to my friends who fought to make this victory a reality!"
Now watch me sacrifice the most important contributor to this triumph.
"What awaits now is the world I sought, a world entirely chosen by Steins Gate! The world will now be reconstructed!"
I moved my shaking hand forward, finger hovering over the enter key.
'Kurisu… I'm sorry.' I think as I lower my fingers.
"OKABE!"
The shock from the sudden sound causes me to withdraw my finger. I look up, its Kurisu.
"Okabe…I feel…I feel the same! I love you!"
She looks at me, smiling. That beautiful smile of hers. I can't! I can't sacrifice her now! Why did she have to show up now? I was about to accept her decision! The immense guilt on my face clearly showed as her smile faded, replaced by a look of concern.
"O…Okabe?"
My knees buckle under me. I can't trade lives like this! I can't save Mayuri, not at the cost of Kurisu. Tears well up in my eyes. I slowly stand up, forcing myself forward towards Mayuri. I hug her.
"M-Mayuri…I-I'm…I'm sorry…I can't save you."
I release her and walk out of the lab. Soon, the rounders will come. Soon, Mayuri will die. Eventually…the dystopia will occur. This was all because of me. Because of my choice. I'm sorry Kurisu. I'm sorry Suzuha. I'm sorry Faris. I'm sorry Rukako. I'm sorry Mayuri. Because of me, all of you have suffered and will suffer.
Hey guys! This is my first fanfiction so its not going to be perfect but if you enjoy the plot of this fanfiction please feel free to write in and suggest where this story could go! Also all constructive criticism is appreciated!
