She had been away for 3 months, learning and surviving on her own.
It was hard of course, to be so alone when she was dealing with her demons. But she couldn't go back, not yet. Not when she looked at Jasper and saw Maya, or when she looked at Octavia and saw the aftermath of the bomb that hit Tondc. She was toxic, her decisions only lead to more sorrow and she couldn't deal looking in their eyes without seeing the uncertainty or the fear in their eyes.
She was doing this for her people, staying away was the only thing good she could do for them.
