AU. Told through journal entries. E-mails, text messages, and phone calls, Kaoru is an average college sophomore trying to find herself and love. Awkward, clumsy, and tongue-tied in front of the opposite sex, Kaoru only wants to be able to get over a crush that she has had on Kenshin Himura since she first started college. However, due to some meddlesome friends, she ends up on a dating service instead.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Rurouni Kenshin or any of its characters!



Journal of Kaoru Kamiya

August 24, 2009

It just isn't fair. Every time I think about it, it just makes me depressed.

Now I know this is going to make me sound so utterly ridiculous, but why can't I get a boyfriend? I mean come on; I am 20 years old and have yet to ever have a boyfriend. Not even one of those boyfriends back in elementary school that really don't even count as a real boyfriend. My god, I am pathetic.

Why? Why me? I mean, okay so I'm not one of those drop dead gorgeous types that make men – or even boys! My god I can't even get a prepubescent boy to look at me. NOT that I want them to or anything, I mean ew, I'm 20 years old not a pedophile…Oh god there is something terribly wrong with me, I cannot believe I just started talking about boys, but I just didn't mean like little boys or anything. ACK! Okay wow… I blame it on the sun… and Misao. Misao, who was suppose to meet me here at the Akabeko for lunch and has yet to show up, therefore giving me way to much time to think about my nonexistent love life.

I totally just wanted to stay in our dorm and finish that paper that's due next week for Anthropology. Instead, I am here sitting in a cramped little booth by the kitchen waiting for her!!

Where is she? I can't believe – Oh, there's THE KENDO TEAM!!?!!!!!?!


To: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Fr: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Re: Where the hell were you??!

SO???? WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU?!!

M


To: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Fr: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Re: Where the hell were you??!

Where the hell was I?! Where the hell were you??!

I was on time, okay. AND I waited over 15 minutes for you. Now I know that is nowhere near the amount of time I've waited for you in the past. Do you remember that time I waited for you for two hours just to see you without your braces on back in high school?

Yeah, well 15 minutes is all I could stand to wait this time. Especially when the ENTIRE kendo team showed up.

I hate my life.

Kaoru


To: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Fr: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Re: I'm sorry

DUN DUN DUN!!!

So what happened??

M

P.S. Yes, I remember the time you waited two hours just to see me without my braces on back in high school, and the time you waited 45 minutes for me after I broke up with my "boyfriend" back in fifth grade. So, I'm sorry.


To: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Fr: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Re: What happened

Nothing.

I pretended I was busy writing in my journal. That is until he got up to go to the bathroom. So of course I panic. I stand up too fast and knock over my chair into a waiter!! The poor guy went flying into one of the plants! But that is not all, oh no, he sees the whole thing! And because he's him he comes over to help, while I'm standing there babbling out apologies.

Please shoot me.

Kaoru


To: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Fr: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Re: What happened

It IS kind of funny. I mean, if you think about it. That Kenshin Himura should have happened to be there… again.

It's just so...you.

M


To: Misao Makimachi; weasel-gurL at hotmail dot com

Fr: Kaoru Kamiya; jou-chan14 at hotmail dot com

Re: I hate you

I hate you.

Kaoru

P.S. This obsession I have cannot be healthy whatsoever. I mean, all we have ever done is talk once in a while and he has never even shown ANY signs of liking me. Hence, I have finally come up with my goal for the year. To get over Kenshin Himura.