Torchwood

Those We Have Lost

By

Dawn M Duval

Chapter One

Jack was trying to concentrate but try as he might he couldn't. The words swam about in front of him making no sense at all. He was trying to blot it out, but it kept coming back, the voice of his conscience. 'They died Jack, they died because of you'. Being immortal was harder than people could image. Ok you lived forever, but those around you didn't, you always lost your friends. But this was the worst, they had died because him, a technical genius and a brilliant doctor, the blood was on his hands. It had been quite literally, he'd washed his hands for hours trying to remove Toshiko's blood, visually you couldn't see it any more but he knew it was still there and always would be. If he had just looked after his brother like he had been told, if he hadn't let go of his hand, he wouldn't have come back, such a long time later and reeked havoc on Jack's world. It was his brother's bullet that had killed Toshiko but it might well have been Jack's own and Owen would have never got shut in the nuclear facility if it hadn't been Jack's brother's idea to reek havoc on Cardiff and make Captain John his messenger of death.

Jack put the paperwork down it was no good. He walked out of his office and looked down from the balcony. He couldn't see Gwen's face but he could hear the sniffing that indicated she was crying. Ianto was going about his business but Jack could see shiny streaks on his cheeks. How had Jack let it happen? He was supposed to protect his team. If they had died at the hands of an alien it would have been bad enough, but at the hands of his own brother was just unspeakable.

Jack had been in his office trying to work for a while when the peace of the hub was broken. He left his office to investigate; it was a strange banging noise. Gwen had been ahead of him.

She came back ashen faced "The noise is coming from one of the drawers in the morgue"

"Grey hasn't woken up has he?"

Ianto joined Jack and Gwen as they went down to the morgue to investigate, they had their guns at the ready.

"If it's Grey" Jack said "I deal with him"

As they got closer to the noise it got louder.

"That's not where we put Grey" Ianto said

"Who or what is in there?" Gwen asked

"That's where we put Toshiko"