The idea for this story came to me while I was trying to find something to read and couldn't find exactly what I was looking for.

This story starts after Edward and Bella return from Volterra. It is not the happy ever after Bella first thought it would be. That's fine though this time she has a plan to make sure she gets what she wants.

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns everything except the spelling errors and grammar mistakes those are all mine!

When Edward said "Come for a walk with me" for the second time I knew this wouldn't be good.

He told me they were not staying in Forks now that I was home safe they would leave again.

Edward told me how Alice had a vision when we were on the way back from Volterra. She had seen his true mate and it wasn't me.

"I need to find her" he said "I'm leaving so as not to hurt either of us, if we are not destined to be then why drag this relationship out any further then we need to"

I replay these words every day in my head, I will never forget them. They are the words that broke my heart. There are times when I think I will never be whole. This time though I'm going to put myself back together no more wallowing I'll make sure to survive and make myself stronger in the process.

I still want to be a vampire I feel like it's what I'm supposed to be. Anyway the Volturi said they will be checking in. There's no getting away from it.

Time to make a plan figure out what I need to do.

First things first I need to graduate high school.

Secondly, I need to get a job to get extra money so I can leave once I have graduated.

Thirdly, start training, I need to be stronger there will be no more clumsy Bella and no more being weak.

Fourthly, talk Charlie into letting me travel after high school. I need him to let me go so I can go to Italy.

Fifth and finally for now, learn Italian, that's a must if I plan to make Italy my home.

Let me know what you think!

Next Chapter is longer.