Disclaimer: Ok no matter how many stars I wish upon I have never and will never own Twilight. sniff sniff
A:N/ This is my first Twilight Fan fiction so please go easy – the idea has been in my head for a while so after some internal debate here it is – finally.
Chapter one: Dear Diary
Dear Diary,
My name is Isabella Marie Swan, I'm a sister a friend and I was a daughter and a lover – I'm forever eighteen and am living in England with my two best friends while attending collage. Sounds good right? Wrong. I'm living in my own personal hell thanks to an enemy brought onto me by my ex boyfriend. Boyfriend, it's such a loose term when regarding him – he was so much more then that. They all were.
You my dear diary may be wondering who they are? What possible impact could they have on my life to leave me so empty and hollow after they left me? They, are the Cullen's and he is the reason my life is ruined – I shouldn't have been surprised really; why would someone love me – a klutzy plain old boring girl. Well I'm not that boring girl anymore – that girl died the day he left. She is all but a memory now – a nightmare really. I should be glad she's gone…but I'm not. She – or the old me rather is the only connection I had left of them – but like I said the damage is already done; they left he left and I died that faithful day in the woods.
I hate thinking about that day, they say time heals all wounds and he said human memories fade with time. But what about those who aren't human, time doesn't heal their wounds – they reopen and stay open for the entire world to see and punish you worse and worse by each day while your memories provide a sick torture to your already broken heart. Memories don't fade, and time doesn't heal your wounds – not when you're living the life of a vampire.
