Frozen Secrets
by: ThatKawaiiYoukai
I always said that I'd be damned if I ever wrote a fic involving Yaoi/Yuri, but I decided to give it a shot. It might suck a little, but I'm not iliterate. If anything's screwed, it's the title. I was at a loss, before I even began this damn story. It's basically an KagomeXSango-ish fic, Kagome's POV. It's my first time writing a story like this, so I think you all know what to expect... ________________________________________________
I don't know. Not anymore, anyway. When I look at her, I don't know what to do. I never really thought about loving Sango, although it did cross my mind a couple times, only not enough to even think about considering it. They were setting in though, those thoughts...
I'm afraid.
Afraid that, if I tell her, she'd laugh in my face, and mock me about confessing such a thing to her. Even though she's not like that at all, I'm still afraid of that chance. I wanna bring myself out, and just say what I feel, but how? It isn't everyday that a kid tells another girl "I love you" and walk away, like nothing happened. It'd be a hell of a lot easier, though. Every time I have enough nerve to even steal a glimpse of her, my hands and feet get cold, and the blood drains from my face. I often stutter, and blush, making a fool of myself. The worst part is, that Sango stares at me, watching my stupidity.
Watching.
Watching me twiddle my fingers, and desperately try to calm myself down. Watching me take deep breaths, and let them out. But worst of all, she's watching me spit out apologies, and run away, tripping over myself. I wonder sometimes, though. What'll happen if Inuyasha finds out? Even worse, what'll happen when he finds out?
"Oswari!" I yell to the hanyou, who was pestering a man, barking out questions about the whereabouts of Naraku. Like a mere human would know, anyway. Miroku nods, disapprovingly. "Inuyasha, you will never learn." he says, not bothering to help him up. The man hangs his mouth open, and scrambles away, in fear of being killed.
"What the hell was that for?!"
"For being so impossible. You never give anyone a chance."
Inuyasha grunts, and lifts himself up. "You let him get away, too? Gee, thanks Kagome. You're a REAL big help."
"Don't be so selfish," Shippou put in. "she was only trying to help." he batted Inuyasha on the head, with his paw.
Sango chuckles a little, and puts down her boomerang. "This isn't working, very well." she says.
"Damn right." Inuyasha replies, one ear twitching slightly--the imput that he was embarrassed, only he was trying to play it off.
Typical.
I stetch one leg over the seat of my bike, in the beginning process to ride away, and go home. I was halfway on it, when Sango puts her hand on my shoulder, and raises an eyebrow.
"Kagome? You're not going home now, are you?"
I cock my head to one side, and blush. "Um, I was, I mean, I'll stay here...if you want me to..." She interrupts my stammpering with a light laugh. "Stay here, Kagome...I need you."
She needs me? What does she mean by that?
"You need me?" I ask, unsure of myself--for obvious reasons.
"Sure. I need you to help me make sure Inuyasha and Miroku behave themselves." she winks. "Shippou and I can't do it all by ourselves, can we?"
I look to the floor, and nod. "Anything for you, Sango-chan..." I say with uncertainty. ________________________
"Kagome... It's too dark." Shippou says, clenching my shirt with his paw. It was twilight now, and the sun was going down, leaving the Feudal Era in complete darkness. I smile. "It's not dark." I say. "We've got stars, for light."
"We'd have a lot more light, if that stupid Inuyasha hadn't put out that fire."
"Shippou-chan. Don't worry. You've got all of us." Sango says, from afar. She adds the last remark with a yawn. "You've got Kagome, too. The most important of all of us."
Once again, I can feel heat rise to my cheeks, and a tingle arces across my forehead as I desperately try to hide my embarrassment. "Sango-chan." I say, softly. Shippou shifted his weight, and squeaked a yawn. I looked down, and saw that he had fallen asleep--just like that.
Lying him on my blanket, I stetch. I was just about to fall asleep, when I heard the faint whisper of Sango, calling my name. I look in her direction.
"Hmm?" was all that came out of my mouth, because if I had said anything more, my voice would have cracked. Sango laughs, and I couldn't help to wonder, if she was laughing because she felt like it, or she was amazed at my utter stupidity. We sat there for a second, until Sango sighs, and begins to speak softly.
"I miss him..."
I raise an eyebrow, trying to figure out what she meant by him. For I second, I didn't know what--rather who she was talking about. Then I did.
"Kohaku?" I ask, edgily.
She nods, and for a minute, I knew she was going to cry. I clenched the hem of my blanket so hard, that my knuckles ached. I wanted to comfort her so much.
But I was scared.
"He was normal for that instant, before he was gone..." Sango continues. "Gone." she repeats. The last sentence she said sent uncomfortable vibes through my body.
"My little brother is gone, forever."
A weird strangling sensation was caught at my throat. I try to swallow it, but it stays. Suddenly, I feel myself crying. Crying uncontrollably, a soft wail. I was probably waking everyone up, but they still lay deep in their slumber. Only Sango hears my cries of despair. "Kagome?" she asks, in a slight trance of disbelief.
I barely look up, consumed in my own state of well being. Actually, I don't know why I'm crying, really. I just am. "Kagome, are you alright?" Sango inquires, rising for her position. I nod a yes, and rub my eyes.
"I'm fine." I manage to choke out.
She must not believe me, because she wastes no time getting up. Her feet are lightly pounding on the ground, as she rushes toward me. She kneels down, and covers her mouth with her hand, gasping slightly.
"I didn't make you cry, did I?" she asks, being fearful that my answer would most likely be yes.
I don't say a thing. I sit there, rubbing my eyes, and breathing in her fragrance. It's cool, and calming. A lavender scent, I decide. I'm starting to get nervous; Sango's rubbing the edge of my shoulder: meaning she must be trying to comfort me. I'm beginning to get extremely tired, like on hot summer days, when there's nothing to do. I sniffle, and squint one eye in an entire different direction.
"Well, are you?" Sango suddenly asks.
I blink. "Wha?" I realize that she must have been talking the whole time, and I wasn't listening.
"Are you feeling better?" Sango repeats the question that I didn't hear.
I nod, and she smiles. "Good." she replies, and gets up. "Get to sleep." she winks. "I bet we'll have some youkai to take care of tomarrow!"
I lay down on my tatami mat, close to Shippou. It took awhile for sleep to find me, but when it did, I wondered if youkai were the only business we were both going to settle tomarrow.
Or was it more?
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Well, if you can't tell, that's pretty much the end of the first chapter. It took me at least 2 days to finish it, so look out for the second.
by: ThatKawaiiYoukai
I always said that I'd be damned if I ever wrote a fic involving Yaoi/Yuri, but I decided to give it a shot. It might suck a little, but I'm not iliterate. If anything's screwed, it's the title. I was at a loss, before I even began this damn story. It's basically an KagomeXSango-ish fic, Kagome's POV. It's my first time writing a story like this, so I think you all know what to expect... ________________________________________________
I don't know. Not anymore, anyway. When I look at her, I don't know what to do. I never really thought about loving Sango, although it did cross my mind a couple times, only not enough to even think about considering it. They were setting in though, those thoughts...
I'm afraid.
Afraid that, if I tell her, she'd laugh in my face, and mock me about confessing such a thing to her. Even though she's not like that at all, I'm still afraid of that chance. I wanna bring myself out, and just say what I feel, but how? It isn't everyday that a kid tells another girl "I love you" and walk away, like nothing happened. It'd be a hell of a lot easier, though. Every time I have enough nerve to even steal a glimpse of her, my hands and feet get cold, and the blood drains from my face. I often stutter, and blush, making a fool of myself. The worst part is, that Sango stares at me, watching my stupidity.
Watching.
Watching me twiddle my fingers, and desperately try to calm myself down. Watching me take deep breaths, and let them out. But worst of all, she's watching me spit out apologies, and run away, tripping over myself. I wonder sometimes, though. What'll happen if Inuyasha finds out? Even worse, what'll happen when he finds out?
"Oswari!" I yell to the hanyou, who was pestering a man, barking out questions about the whereabouts of Naraku. Like a mere human would know, anyway. Miroku nods, disapprovingly. "Inuyasha, you will never learn." he says, not bothering to help him up. The man hangs his mouth open, and scrambles away, in fear of being killed.
"What the hell was that for?!"
"For being so impossible. You never give anyone a chance."
Inuyasha grunts, and lifts himself up. "You let him get away, too? Gee, thanks Kagome. You're a REAL big help."
"Don't be so selfish," Shippou put in. "she was only trying to help." he batted Inuyasha on the head, with his paw.
Sango chuckles a little, and puts down her boomerang. "This isn't working, very well." she says.
"Damn right." Inuyasha replies, one ear twitching slightly--the imput that he was embarrassed, only he was trying to play it off.
Typical.
I stetch one leg over the seat of my bike, in the beginning process to ride away, and go home. I was halfway on it, when Sango puts her hand on my shoulder, and raises an eyebrow.
"Kagome? You're not going home now, are you?"
I cock my head to one side, and blush. "Um, I was, I mean, I'll stay here...if you want me to..." She interrupts my stammpering with a light laugh. "Stay here, Kagome...I need you."
She needs me? What does she mean by that?
"You need me?" I ask, unsure of myself--for obvious reasons.
"Sure. I need you to help me make sure Inuyasha and Miroku behave themselves." she winks. "Shippou and I can't do it all by ourselves, can we?"
I look to the floor, and nod. "Anything for you, Sango-chan..." I say with uncertainty. ________________________
"Kagome... It's too dark." Shippou says, clenching my shirt with his paw. It was twilight now, and the sun was going down, leaving the Feudal Era in complete darkness. I smile. "It's not dark." I say. "We've got stars, for light."
"We'd have a lot more light, if that stupid Inuyasha hadn't put out that fire."
"Shippou-chan. Don't worry. You've got all of us." Sango says, from afar. She adds the last remark with a yawn. "You've got Kagome, too. The most important of all of us."
Once again, I can feel heat rise to my cheeks, and a tingle arces across my forehead as I desperately try to hide my embarrassment. "Sango-chan." I say, softly. Shippou shifted his weight, and squeaked a yawn. I looked down, and saw that he had fallen asleep--just like that.
Lying him on my blanket, I stetch. I was just about to fall asleep, when I heard the faint whisper of Sango, calling my name. I look in her direction.
"Hmm?" was all that came out of my mouth, because if I had said anything more, my voice would have cracked. Sango laughs, and I couldn't help to wonder, if she was laughing because she felt like it, or she was amazed at my utter stupidity. We sat there for a second, until Sango sighs, and begins to speak softly.
"I miss him..."
I raise an eyebrow, trying to figure out what she meant by him. For I second, I didn't know what--rather who she was talking about. Then I did.
"Kohaku?" I ask, edgily.
She nods, and for a minute, I knew she was going to cry. I clenched the hem of my blanket so hard, that my knuckles ached. I wanted to comfort her so much.
But I was scared.
"He was normal for that instant, before he was gone..." Sango continues. "Gone." she repeats. The last sentence she said sent uncomfortable vibes through my body.
"My little brother is gone, forever."
A weird strangling sensation was caught at my throat. I try to swallow it, but it stays. Suddenly, I feel myself crying. Crying uncontrollably, a soft wail. I was probably waking everyone up, but they still lay deep in their slumber. Only Sango hears my cries of despair. "Kagome?" she asks, in a slight trance of disbelief.
I barely look up, consumed in my own state of well being. Actually, I don't know why I'm crying, really. I just am. "Kagome, are you alright?" Sango inquires, rising for her position. I nod a yes, and rub my eyes.
"I'm fine." I manage to choke out.
She must not believe me, because she wastes no time getting up. Her feet are lightly pounding on the ground, as she rushes toward me. She kneels down, and covers her mouth with her hand, gasping slightly.
"I didn't make you cry, did I?" she asks, being fearful that my answer would most likely be yes.
I don't say a thing. I sit there, rubbing my eyes, and breathing in her fragrance. It's cool, and calming. A lavender scent, I decide. I'm starting to get nervous; Sango's rubbing the edge of my shoulder: meaning she must be trying to comfort me. I'm beginning to get extremely tired, like on hot summer days, when there's nothing to do. I sniffle, and squint one eye in an entire different direction.
"Well, are you?" Sango suddenly asks.
I blink. "Wha?" I realize that she must have been talking the whole time, and I wasn't listening.
"Are you feeling better?" Sango repeats the question that I didn't hear.
I nod, and she smiles. "Good." she replies, and gets up. "Get to sleep." she winks. "I bet we'll have some youkai to take care of tomarrow!"
I lay down on my tatami mat, close to Shippou. It took awhile for sleep to find me, but when it did, I wondered if youkai were the only business we were both going to settle tomarrow.
Or was it more?
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Well, if you can't tell, that's pretty much the end of the first chapter. It took me at least 2 days to finish it, so look out for the second.
