He held me close to his tender body. I curled up next to him and placed my left hand on his chest. I could feel his heart beating. His strong arm was embracing me. His fingertips caressed my skin. Once again I was safe in his arms. But that sensation ran away from me because it was a turning point in our lives and the fear ran through my veins. Perhaps that would be our last night together. Perhaps that would be the last time that I hear him say I love you. Perhaps that would be our last kiss. I wanted to burst into tears. The fact was that if I lose Arthur, I lose everything. He was the king of Camelot, a great man, an amazing knight... Arthur was everything to me. He was the reason why I smile, why I live. I was so happy beside him. I loved him like no other.

"I need you to be careful" I said looking for his gaze, I wanted to see those perfect blue eyes.

"I want you to know that I will always love you, I'll always be in your heart" his voice was so deep, a nice melody to my ears.

"I'll always love you, never forget it" I smiled back at him. "I know that we'll win this battle. You must survive for your people, because they need you... And I need you too. We both promised that we will get old together and I wouldn't like to break that promise"

"That's why I love you" he kissed me in my forehead. "Because you always give me hope in the hardest moments"

(...)

A large number of wounded men entered to the tent. Gwen, Gaius, some servants and I were taking care of the nights who had fought in the name of Camelot. The battle was over. I was anxious waiting for Arthur so we can back to Camelot in peace. The Patrol was looking for him. I was so afraid. I was hoping that they'd find Arthur alive. At least, I was hoping that he was with Merlin because beside him, he was safe and sound.

(...)

The time went by and there was no sign of Arthur, neither Merlin but Gaius told me that they were together, and they'll come back home. I was afraid, I didn't wanna lose them. Arthur was the love of my life, my other half. And Merlin was more than a friend, he was like my brother, the one I trust. I was staring at the window hoping to see them coming back to the castle. I only moved because we had to execute a girl who had cheated Sir Gwaine's confidence. She infiltrated into the castle to spy us so she cuould tell Morgana everything that was going here. Poor Gwaine, he was devastated, it was really heartbreaking. After that, Sir Percival and Gwaine went after Morgana, before she get to Arthur and Merlin. So, I was waiting for them too.

I felt so powerlessness. I should got out and look for them, instead of staying at the castle. Gaius and Gwen were traying to keep me calm, but it was useless. So, Gaius gave me a poison that made feel relaxed. I went to my chambers and I leaned over the bed. I could smell Arthur's aroma. I needed him really bad. I needed to see those eyes, I needed to hear his voice saying I love you.

Someone knocked the door and a strange feeling woke up in me. I got out of bed and ran to the door. It was Sir Leon and his face said it all. "He's dead" and my world just crumbled. Tears rushed through my face. I felt so devastated. My life, my dreams, my happiness, they all vanished. My mind was repeating Why? He told me that Sir Gwaine was dead too. Why life was so unfair?

(...)

It was really hard to go on with life after such a big tragedy. I promised myself that I'll be strong. Arthur's memory was the only thing I had left... The memory of our love. He wasn't there with me but my love for him was beating inside of my heart like the first time he took my hand.