DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANY OF THE MORTAL INSTRUMENTS CHARACTERS OR CONTENT ALL RIGHTS GO TO CASSANDRA CLARE.
Chapter 1-Desperate Desires
I watch from a far as he stands there looking so peaceful and almost angelic like. I can't help but notice how beautiful he is with his silver hair blowing in the wind and his green eyes sparkling in the light of the afternoon sun.
He isn't alone though, he is with her. Aline Penhallow his girlfriend. It's not like they have been together long, only 3 weeks, but to him thats like a lifetime.
Why wouldn't he want her? She is beautiful every possible way. Aside from the fact that she is a royal bitch. Yep I said it, she is a royal bitch and he is just to blinded by her gorgeous dark hair and her long legs to see it. I know he's not in love or anything at least i hope not but I know one day he may be in love with her and then what will i do? Continue to watch while he drifts further away from my reach.
I might not be so jealous of her is she wasn't such a skanky, stuck up bitch. Well who am i to judge? If I looked like her i would probably be a stuck up princess too but no i am just a 5 ft nothing midge with huge green eyes and fire for hair.
I know i should probably stop looking at them from across the school yard because seeing them only makes it hurt worse. Why can't I just look like her? Why can't he feel for me what i feel for him. I can't stand to see them smiling and kissing anymore so i look away. I don't know why i choose to each lunch in the schoolyard when i know they are always here. Maybe i eat here instead of the cafeteria because i think if i see them together enough i will finally move on.
So far that plan has failed me miserably. "Clary?" I am pulled out of my thoughts by my best friend Isabelle Lightwood. "Earth to clary?"
"Huh, what?" i reply and she rolls her eyes " I have been trying to ask you something for the past 5 minutes but you were in Clary land again." She says in an annoyed tone.
"Sorry I guess i just got distracted; what were you saying?"
"Who are you going to take as your date to homecoming?"
"Um, i'm not going so that solves that problem"
Izzy looks at me like i have just grown 3 heads, "What the hell do you mean you aren't going, i already bought our tickets and for the love of god clary you are 16 years old and have shown no interest in any boys what so ever. I am starting to think you might be lesbian."
"First of all I mean i am not going cause it's not like anyone wants to go with me anyways, second of all i didn't ask you to buy the tickets so tough luck, and third of all I am not lesbian ok, I do show interest in certain boys they just show no interest in me.I mean why would they?"
"Clary are you insane or do you really not see just how smokin hot you are. Cause i heard that Sebastian Verlac is super in to you and is going to ask you to homecoming"
Sebastian Verlac, really? He likes me? No way. It doesn't matter anyways I could never feel for Sebastian what i feel for him "No way Izzy, Sebastian Verlac is hot and popular and i am well...not."
Izzy gets a wicked grin and glint in her eyes that she only gets when she is about to do something she knows i will hate "Hey Sebastian, come here." she yells all the way across the schoolyard.
I turn around and see a tall dark haired boy with dark eyes to match other know as Sebastian Verlac walking our way "IZZY!"
"You will thank me for this later" she assures me
"Hey Izzy" he says as he approaches us at our bench "Hi Clary you look beautiful today as always"
I try to hide my blush but don't do a very good job as i see Sebastian grin. Ok so i blushed sue me, I am only human.
"Hey Seb." Izzy reply nonchalantly "Hi Sebastian." I say trying to be smooth but i really looking like the nervous teenage girl i am. Not because I am super crazy about Sebastian Verlac but mainly because i am not used to hot people flirting with me.
"Not that I don't enjoy your company but why did you call me over here?"
Clary looks over at me then back at Sebastian "Well our sweet Clary here doesn't wanna go to Homecoming because she has no date and i was wondering if you knew anyone who might be interested in taking her"
I look down ashamed. I am so going to kill Izzy for this later.
So grins yet again when i decide to look back up "Actually i know someone who would be greatly interested"
Surprised i raise my eyebrows and ask "Who?"
"Me" he says as he laughs at how oblivious i am.
Just as I am about to respond he walks over along with his slut girlfriend Aline. My heart swells at the nearness of silver hair, green eyed beauty who has my heart and soul but will never give me his for obvious reasons.
"Hey Seb what are you doing over here? he asks his best-friend with a weird look on his face that i can't quite read.
"Actually Jonathan before you so rudely interrupted I was just asking your little sister to homecoming"
There it was, the two words that made my heart shrink and my stomach get knots. 'Little Sister'. That is all I was ever going to be, because the boy who will never love me in that way but I so wrongfully yearn for is my big brother Jonathan Morgenstern.
