Would it kill you to love me? Could you hold me close and never let me go. Grip my body and pull me close, kiss me until nights end? Tell me you love me, that I am the only thing in this world that matters to you and you will be with me for eternity. Move your lips down my body, caress me with your heavenly touch, whisper in my ear what I want to hear. Do dirty things to me. Cup my chest and rub it tender. Roll with me in the sheets, hold me close to your chest; so close that I can hear your heartbeat. Run your fingers through my hair, place it behind my ears; stare into my eyes and tell me your mine.
Thats what I thought when I saw her. Every time I would look at her, I would imagine myself locked in a room with just her and one bed. The feelings I had for her drove me wild. All I could think about was what it would be like if she touched me, the spark of electricity we would have when our lips touched. Everything about her in general was perfection, she was perfect; she was also my best friend.
The matter of sitting next her in class wasn't pleasure, it was pure torture. I never thought that being in this position could be so difficult. I wanted to tell her how I felt but I couldn't; and if I tried anything it could ruin our friendship. Everything I once knew could leave me in a flash, I truly didn't want to loose Maggie. She meant everything to me; we have been friends for ages.
The bell went, I quickly packed up my things and left quickly. I had to get away, just for five minutes or so. Walking down the hallways at school, wasn't the same as it used to be. It was like a game of hide and go seek, I didn't want to be found. I could bump into her any minute; and I knew if I did I would kiss her.
'Bradshaw.' It was Sebastian. Turning around quickly I gazed into his big blue eyes and smiled. I really loved having him as my sexy bad boy, but when we would do things, to me it didn't feel right. It wasn't the same. He leant down and kissed me on the lips, his arms wrapped around me; holding me tight. Letting go, Sebastian looked at me; he seemed quite happy today. 'Did you wanna go to the movies after school, maybe after grab some food at the diner?'
'I can't, Dad's coming home late and I have to look after Dorrit. Sorry Sebastian.' I waved goodbye and moved fast like lightning. I just needed to get home.
As soon I got out the main entrance to the school, I ran home. Sprinting as fast as I could, I dodged every object that came towards me. Everyone looked so different today, they all seemed so happy. Of course I had to feel like shit when everyone was having a good time. Arriving home, was the greatest feeling in my life. I opened the front door and I quickly closed it behind me. I stopped and gasped for a quick breather, than I ran upstairs and locked my door. Landing face first on my bed, I looked over at the telephone; I thought I should call her and tell her how I feel. I couldn't, it would ruin everything. Starting to cry into my pillow, I soon enough fell asleep.
Grasping onto her waist, I drew Maggie closer towards me. Her lips pressed mine, her tongue inside of me. Slowly pushing my hair out of my face, she gazed deeply into my eyes and said 'I love you.' , I looked back at her. Her smile was like a million diamonds, sparkling in the midnight sun. She kissed me again, but only this time was different; I felt sparks….
'Carrie!' Dorrit screamed 'What's for dinner?'
Seriously, she woke me up from one of the greatest fantasies in my life to ask me that?! 'Just order a pizza!' I wasn't even hungry. Hunger was the one emotion I wasn't feeling. The only emotion I was feeling was lust, not for Sebastian; but for Maggie.
