It's not fair. It just isn't. No matter what I do she comes back to haunt my mind. It is so infuriating and agonizing! It all started out with friendship as it always does, but then I got to know her. Knowing her opened up a flurry of feelings that I didn't even know resided in me. I felt warm, happy, content, satisfied and so much more.

Everything she did felt so perfect! She was an angel. The most perfect angel that ever existed. The way she walked, so lithe, so graceful and full of perfection. She seemed to float above the ground. Her short jet black hair unimaginably silky and shiny. The sun shone upon her hair and face so perfectly. Her flawless, smooth skin seemed so creamy and soft. She was so fair and her eyes so dark. Her eyes contrasted her skin so well. She was truly the epitome of beauty. There was nothing that could ever dare to compete against her perfection.

Her body was so thin and curvy. When she walked she sent flutters up my back. Her hair flies in the gentle breeze. When she walked her hips swayed ever so slowly and perfectly. Her laugh is so majestic! Whenever someone does the littlest of thing that make her happy… The smile that comes out is so exuberant! It lights up my world!

She's so perfect but she will never know all of this. She will never know because there is one thing that keeps her from knowing.

And that thing is not a thing. But a person who is none other than Natsume Hyuuga. Yes my brother.

For as long as I can remember he has been utterly and completed love struck by her. He knows both of us talk but he doesn't know these feelings for her. But when I gaze into her deep, vibrant, violet eyes I know that at that moment everything is perfect. Because when I am with her life is perfect and everything makes sense. I know that I will have her best friend's full support in this but it is my brother who I fear. But at the end of the day what makes her happy makes me happy.

Everybody thinks she is a hard and heartless but I know her better. I see her for what she is inside. Inside she is just another beautiful woman who wants to be loved and cared for.

I must face this I guess, for the rest of my life… I must accept that the woman I love will never be mine. I must accept that Hotaru Imai will never be mine.

~Att-san