Dear Tom,
You would think that me of all people should be happy, with six brothers and Mom and Dad, but actually I am not. I am the youngest in the family and, Mom and Dad have high standards for my life (all thanks to a prefect, and one to be) and but there are times that I can't reach them. Please don't get me wrong because I do really love my family, but there are times when I just need to get my thoughts out and the only way to do that is by telling, you, a book.
I don't like having to be under the shadow of two Prefects, and I can tell neither does Ron (Fred and George could care less). Mom is always making it hard for me to live to standards at school and at home. Though at school life is easier since she is not right there all the time. At home, though, that's a different issue altogether. Ever tried to win an argument with her?! Don't try it because it's pointless. Why, you ask? Here's why. She stuffs the words back down your throat; even if you are telling the truth. It's crazy! ARG! how I would love to say my mind freely to her; to tell her what I really am thinking but I have given up now. There is no point trying to tell someone things when it just bounces back at you. I have told Hermione this, and she did make a good point of that if I really need to get something across, then I must wait till after the person has calmed down. I have done this and it does work, but, hahaha, even then I don't express my true thoughts about stuff.
Here is one of the things that I will never say straight to my parents faces. They overprotect me. Hard to believe but it is true. Dad always says that I am his only daughter and he wants to protect me from the world but does he not get the fact that I am growing up now?! I need to spread my wings and explore what the world has out there before I actually leave the house forever. I need to see what I am up against as a girl. I need to learn to make my own decisions and live from the consequences as they come. As long as Mom and Dad make them for me, I will never be able to know how to do those things. I can't be reliant on them for my every need and decision as I grow older. Can you imagine how embarrassing it is to have to say to my friends, "Oh, let me ask Mom and see if I can go", or "I have to see if that is Ok with my parents first". It's not fun. Though, I will admit, I have noticed a change now that I slightly older, but still, I am not a little girl anymore and I am beginning to want to become myself and they need to realize that.
Anyways. Sorry, that the first entry was boring and kinda not happy, but I needed to get that off my chest. I will try to keep a happier face from now on. Hahaha, maybe I will write about my crush on a boy next time, I don't know yet. But! Oh how happy I am able to write to you and that you actually listen, well read. You have know idea how freeing this is for me to get my deepest and most private thoughts out to someone. Thanks ever so much.
See you next time,
Ginny
