Title: Missing you

Pairing : NaruGaa

Summary: Gaara is missing Naruto so he goes online. He decides to become Kazekage after deep reflection. It's mostly from Gaara's point of view. This is before he becomes Kazekage. Let's just pretend for a second that they have computers and internet. It's sort of a spur-of-the moment thing I typed up. I started at 10:40 and posted it at like 11:19. This is dedicated to Mai.

Offline

It's 10 pm. I log on to my computer to check my mail.

I haven't gotten word from you in ages and I'm more than a little disappointed.

So you've been busy ruling. I get that.

I'm busy here as well. Though not for the same reasons, mind you.

I log on to messenger and scroll down to find your name, hoping that, any second now, a window would appear telling me that you're online and that you're there just waiting to start talking.

But you're not.

All I see is a grey offline icon.

Do you know what offline means?

It means that you're not there.

Well, I'm never offline.

I'm always there for you, aren't I?

Unless…

You've blocked me…

You don't want to have anything to do with me, since I'm not exactly a reminder of joyful memories past.

Memories, yes. Joyful, not so much.

I only remind you of pain.

I see myself as yet another reminder to you not to trust anyone because they'll just hurt you.

Leave you…

I check my mail.

Spam, spam, chain mail, spam.

But nothing from you.

What is it that you're doing there?

Busy being the Hokage that everyone looks up to and depends on?

I guess that can be a bit of a bother.

Scratch that.

I know that can be a real headache.

Although I have no experience in the matter whatsoever…

When I was there and you were not so much the leader you are now, you were always stressed.

I would always have to pay extra close attention to you at times like before the tests would come up.

Because you were prone to stress.

But now…

I'm way over here in suna…

I haven't gotten word from you in a week, a month. I dunno. I've lost count.

I hope you're doing well there.

Sometimes I wish you were a nobody again.

Not that I don't want you to achieve the greatness that you've strived so hard to achieve…

The goal of being someone important and seen as an equal in everyone else's eyes…

Although you hardly cared what anyone else said…?

I wish you were nobody so we could spend time together…

If you're a nobody you don't have to go to meetings…

You're not pressured to be a representative in big events….

You'd just be able to sit back and chill with me…

But that's not really happening is it?

That's just a dream of mine...

A childish fantasy of an idle mind…

Well my mind wouldn't be idle is I was a someone…

If I was someone important…

Yeah…

If I WAS someone important, I wouldn't have so much free time on my hands…

Idle time gives my brain room to wander off….

And remind me that you're not here…

If I had less free time…

I'd have less time to miss you…

I wouldn't stop missing you.

No. Definitely not.

I'd just spend less time checking my emails and going online just to see that you aren't there.

But that would probably mean that there is a possibility that you could be online and I would be the one being busy doing god knows what…

I wonder if you think like this too…

If you ever wonder what I'm doing…

Or If I'm thinking of you…

I play games on the computer for a bit, just to keep my mind distracted from the issue at hand...

Maybe I should become Kazekage…

Yeah…

Then I could visit you for "political purposes"…

Ha. I make spending time together sound so important…

Yeah. I should do that…

I am going to become Kazekage…

Then I'd make special event held in Sunagakure where everyone from different countries has to attend…

Then maybe you'd come…

If only you were online…