AN: I don't know why I wrote this but, I hope you enjoy and remember to review! Another note: time does pass in between the paragraphs.

I've heard that people act on their emotions but, If I knew that before all of this drama then, I would have never done it. I made them all hate me and him, just because of one simple kiss and worse, I practically killed her. She was at the point of suicidal thoughts and insanity, all because of me. Well, her boyfriend played a major part as well but, I believe that it is truly my fault. If I had just stopped him, everything would have been alright. Though, I couldn't because I loved him at the time.

In the process of hurting her, I've hurt him too. I had forgotten at the moment about him just because of the of the guy whose had alleged feelings for me had suddenly shown up out of no where. Yep, I followed my head and chose that guy, at what cost though? A heavily priced one at that. If I had only followed my heart, then everyone could have been happy. The question is though, Did I want that? Then, I lost him, just like I lost my friend for a guy that doesn't mean that much to me anymore. He did at one point but, he cost me everything I worked so hard to achieve and then poof, my feelings for him were gone, simply a lie I chose to go along with for the time being.

It still haunts me to this day, the things I've done, the words I said, the actions I could have prevented yet, the worst is and will always be, hurting my only true friend. We hated each other for a while but, we overcome our petty differences once we saw some good in the other. If I had the nerve to tell her about it before it reached her ears, then maybe, just maybe we could have repaired our broken trust as friends. She could have forgiven me and all would be well between us. Yeah right, that's just some deluded fairytale I wished could have happened.

Do I feel guilty? Yes, every day but, I can't undo it. Sometimes, I loved to undo it but, others, I don't because of the wonderful memories created because of our selfish actions. I swear I never thought about hurting her but, it just happened quick. Our memories, are wonderful but, still morally wrong because we still hurt her. I still regret it but, I wonder, does he? Probably not, at least not on the outside. That and he has become a cruelly cold person about caring for others though, not for me.

I've finally done it, I've lost him and I can't get him back. It's all because of one decision that I could have said no to but, I gave into temptation and lost all my self control. Now, the worst part is that he doesn't know how sorry I am or how much I still love him. In the process, I've also lost a friend, actually not just a friend but, a great friend. Someone who would never stab me in the back like I did to her. Yet, I had the guts, hidden underneath the exterior, to act on my feelings and to finally break her and her heart.

AN: Still, I don't know why I wrote this. Perhaps, something took me over when I wrote this. The character who is talking is Gwen, The person she hurt is Courtney, The person she actually misses and wants to be with again is Trent, and The person to blame in this, is Duncan. Oddly enough, I'm a more of a GxD fan as opposed to GxT. I really hoped you all liked this.