It's interesting how we formed our group. But before Brad there
was only Ashley and me. I remember when I first saw him. I was in
awe. He was brave and powerful. He was handsome and masculine. He
was everything I imagined a man to be. Most important of all his
qualities is that he has a good heart.
I never remember ever feeling this way about anyone. I've never
thought of anyone like this. I know that's because I'm young and
I haven't had many real life experiences. And it is because I am
young that things between us would never work.
I know Ashley feels for Marina, but deep down in my heart I
know she is not right for him. She is overprotective and very
demanding. Ashley is a free spirit. He needs his personal space
and time. Ashley has never been one to be tied down. He is the
kind of person who acts before thinking. That's why I know he
will go back to Marina and that will only end in heartbreak and
sorrow.
I can only hope that I will find another like Ashley, but the
men like him are a rare thing indeed. Like a precious gem among
garbage. Maybe when I'm older I'll understand why these things
happen. Maybe one day I'll find a new love. Until that happens
though I will remain faithfully devoted to our cause and to
Ashley.