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Summary: High School, life, social issues, friends, enemies, and maybe somewhere love?
Parrings: Jade/Cat Tori/Beck Andre/Trina Robbie/Brenda
A/N: Yeah I'm not a good writer but I still want to give it a shot.
Cat's Pov
I don't know what it is but theres just something about the way she acts, talks, smiles, that just seems to make me feel unusual. In a good way, but everyone tells me that girls shouldn't like other girls or think about them in a love kind of way. I'm so confused I don't even know if I like her, I think I do I'm just not sure though. Doesn't matter anyway she has a boyfriend and probably thinks I'm just some annoying crazy girl. The sound of the lunch bell snapped me out of my thoughts as everyone rushed out the door. Usually I'd be all for lunch but today I just had too much on my mind, plus I felt sick to my stomach. Grabbing my bag I headed out the door for the bathroom praying that it was mostly if not completely empty. Thankfully no one was there so I just rushed into the first stall and let the tears that had been threatening to over flow just fall to the ground. I cried silently until I heard the bathroom door open and close. Rubbing my face I tried my best to erase the tear stains on my cheeks so no one could see me like this. To no avail it did no good if I couldn't stop crying no matter how badly I wanted to stop. I figured that it was Jade and Trina who had come in because one who going on about how great she was while the other person kept telling her to shut up. I couldn't help but cringe a little knowing that Jade was just on the other side of the stall door, causing me to cry even harder. I hadn't even noticed Trina left until I heard Jade say, "Thank God she left,"
"Cat, I know you're in there," Jade sighed, "Whats wrong?" I was stunned that she knew it was me but then again Jade always seemed to know where I was.
"Go away," I pleaded quietly.
"Don't make me break the door down," she warned sternly.
Reluctantly I opened the door and walked out, but I refused to look Jade in the eye. She asked me again but I still didn't answer instead I looked down at my feet. I heard her sigh heavily before I felt her wrap her arms around me, pulling me into a tight embrace. Sinking to my knees I couldn't help but start sobbing again, wondering why she had to make things so damn hard. She held me for what seemed like forever just trying to comfort me. I couldn't help but think that Jade didn't seem like the kind of person who would do this but it was just another thing that made me lover her more. She called my name and looking up at her through teary eyes I felt my heart skip a beat at the sudden realization of how close our faces were. She was being so cruel without even knowing it and I couldn't help but go against my better judgment. Leaning in I captured her lips in a small but emotion filled kiss.
Pulling back quickly I covered my mouth realizing what I'd just done. Without a word I got up and left, leaving behind a rather confused Jade. I couldn't believe I'd really just kissed Jade I felt so bad. There was no way I could face Jade ever again after that, she probably hates me now. I darted out the entrance of the school only to be greeted by heavy rain and wind. I couldn't have made things any worse but I was sure I'd find some way to. My legs continued to carry me away from the school, my friends, and Jade taking me as far as I could go. I didn't know how far I'd run when I found my self face first on the cold ground, let alone where I was. Pulling my knees into my chest I couldn't help but wallow in self pity. All I could think about was how bad things went with Jade and how she'd probably never speak to me again. I tried to think of something happy or good, but some how anything along the lines of that usually involved Jade. No matter what I thought of my thoughts kept drifting back to her again and again. Each time that happened I felt like my heart was breaking into smaller pieces it hurt so much. I kept asking myself why this and why that only to end up more upset with myself.
Looking around I couldn't help but notice how dull and lifeless everything seemed now. Funny enough even though I had no clue where I was going I ended up about a block from Jade's house. Why did everything have to keep reminding me of Jade. It was like throwing salt in a fresh wound and I hated it. I mean really its like the world enjoys watching me suffer and now its taunting me. More tears found their way down my cheeks as I thought more about. I was beginning to think my parents were right maybe there was something wrong with me mentally. They always said it wasn't normal to be the way I am or do the things I do. I remembered Robbie's grandmother telling me I had psychological problems or that something had to be wrong with me, because of the way my hair is. I'm starting to think that my be true and I just didn't want to admit it so I kept telling myself and others my hair had nothing to do with that.
A/N: Really tired don't know if it makes sense let me know if I should continue or leave it for dead?
