Title: Holes
Warnings: Slash
Pairing: AkuRoku

I always knew I didn't belong.

It was just so easy to ignore.

The small amount of extra space between me and my friends, the way I was always sent to get the ice cream alone, the corner in the usual spot that the other's sat in that seemed so far away from where I was.

Then there was the haunting, confusing, and horrifying dreams.

Dreams of being another person, of knowing people I've never met.

Everyone treated me a little bit different than everyone else.

Everyone seemed to know more about myself than I did.

But the one thing I couldn't ignore was the gaping hole that seemed to be inside my chest.

Something was horribly wrong with me.

When Olette cried from her broken arm, my eyes didn't even water.

When Pence was hurt by something I said, I didn't feel the least bit guilty.

When Hayner was pissed at Seifer, anger escaped me.

Something was wrong and I didn't know what until you showed up, Axel, and for the first time I felt something.

When my memories returned I knew why I never belonged, but at that point the hole inside me seemed to be filling up.

All the sorrow and remorse hit me so hard I could barely breathe.

And then I felt myself fading away, sinking slowly into the light of my somebody.

Now that I am finally whole, now that Sora and I are one again, I can't help but feel like something's missing.

I think I finally figured it out.

It's you, Axel.

You always made me feel something.

We were always connected, I don't know why or how, but we were.

I miss you so bad.

I never got to thank you for saving me.

Where are you now?

AN: I haven't written AkuRoku in awhile and this hit me while I was playing and noticed little things that made it look like Roxas didn't belong.

I also refuse to beleive that Axel is dead. He has to come back!

Review please?