THIS IS A REWRITE OF THE ORIGINAL MY HEART IS CRYING. I FOUND A LOT OF ERRORS AND CORRECTED THEM SO PLZ RE-READ IT IF YOU WANT. THERE ARE A FEW CRITICAL CHANGES. Thanks!
Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha or Clover. Diddlysquat is what I own. InuYasha is property of Takahashi Rumiko and Clover is property of CLAMP.
PG-13
Outside summary: If you find a four-leaved clover, it will bring happiness; but don't tell anyone where its flower blooms. The four leaved clover. I only want your happiness, knowing I can never be yours to share it.
What it means: Kagome's a four-leaf clover. There aren't any others like her. She was always alone. Three leafs, two leafs, even one leafs, and they're all names for children with powers. Kagome's not allowed to leave her cage that she calls home and one day, she gets taken away. Then, she meets the others. They all don't know what she's capable of, not even her. When the government tries to take her back, a fight brews. She just wants her last wish granted before its time to go. What is happiness?
(The others are InuYasha, Sango, Miroku, etc. The outside summary is a poem from Clover. The cage she lives in is actually a gigantic room with no door, like in those asylums, only; Kagome's not crazy. )
M y H e a r t I s C r y i n g
Chapter 1
Breakthrough
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"Kagome," a voice whispered.
Kagome looked up. The auto-dolls were being spoken through again. It was "Grandma."
"Hmm?" she asked. She was listening to the world outside her. Hearing concerts, people on the phone, she had always wondered what was out there. It wasn't very easy doing this when she was talking to other people.
But it was always only one person who she could talk to. The auto-dolls wouldn't be able to answer her if she said anything to them. They were just there to keep her company.
"What are you listening to?"
"People. What do they do out there?" Inside her mind, she knew. She just didn't want Grandma to find out. She wasn't supposed to be interested in the outside world.
"Dangerous things. That's why it's safer for you in here. You understand, don't you?"
Kagome nodded. She just liked to listen to the outside world. She wouldn't know what she'd do if she were actually out there. With that, there was a click that meant that Grandma was gone. To put it simply, she hung up.
Kagome could hear anything out there, it didn't matter how far away it was. As long as it was a sound wave, she could hear it. Loud thoughts, she could hear as well. Only if she wanted to. She could hear anything. As long as it was of her own free will. She controlled what she heard.
Privately, she wrote lyrics to her own songs, her own melody, and sang them to herself and to the auto-dolls. She always thought it would be exciting to actually do that in front of people and onstage, but she wouldn't ever be able to try.
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What am I?
A three-leaf.
Why am I allowed to be free?
Am I that weak that nobody cares if I die?
No one will cry for me when I die.
No one will know.
Just like the other one.
He died; no one cried for him.
Is this the fate of all the clovers?
What of the four-leaf?
Is there really such a thing as a four-leaf?
I would like to free her from that place.
That place in which I hope I will never return to.
Is she so powerful?
Powerful enough to make the wizards lock her up with no way out?
She could just get out herself.
But would she know how?
She knows I am free.
She knows what everyone can do.
What she can do.
Why doesn't she?
Jealousy.
Am I jealous of the four-leaf?
Can anybody answer me?
Is there anybody listening?
No.
No one but her.
The four-leaf.
She listens.
She can hear me.
My thoughts.
She knows.
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Sango was typing like crazy on her laptop. She needed answers. Now.
What was the clover project?
She knew that the government had been capturing children at signs of having powers. Signs of being a clover. They paid the parents lots of money to keep quiet about this and to keep the child.
She had to know. Why?
She was stressed. When Sango had a case, she worked it until she finished it. Until it was done. She couldn't find anything!
Why was the clover project so secret?
Sango was a secret agent, but not for the government or any of that crap. It was a special organization. For people who didn't believe the government was right. The Japanese government was being a bitch to everyone and she wanted to bring them down. Piece by piece.
She was one of those people.
Feeling a hand on her shoulder, she was ready to punch that person but when she turned around, she saw that it was only Miroku.
"Still working on that case? I pity you. On the other hand, I have a lot of free time, if you know what I mean," Miroku said purring. He laid his head on her shoulder, arms around her and looked at what she was doing.
"Miroku, this is not working. I can't find anything! Even in the government computer! Is this bigger than the government...?" she asked, pouting.
Miroku sighed.
"I guess I don't have as much free time as I thought."
He decided to help her. There was no way she could finish this alone.
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Kagome heard footsteps. She had been asleep, but not for long. Was someone coming? She was anxious. She had never seen a person before. Not a live one. The auto-dolls were a good copy but they weren't the real thing.
Too bad. That person was just walking past. Just a guard? It couldn't be. The guards never came this close before.
What was happening? Kagome heard more footsteps. They were really close. She could sense at least five armed people outside her "home."
After awhile, they left.
Kagome stayed emotionless. She had never experienced happiness before. Sadness, jealousy, joy, anything. She was just an emotionless doll. Born in the outside world, living in the inside one.The only emotions she had ever felt were loneliness; for this was not sadness, but a different version of it, anxiousness, and hope. She always hoped someone would come for her. To take her away. To be happy, to know what it felt like.
Clover
I want happiness
I seek happiness
to cause your happiness
to be your happiness
so take me
someplace far away
to a true Elsewhere
please take me there
magic that lasts
never-ending kiss
reverie without break
imperishable bliss
take me
I want happiness
birds sing
song of unknown tongue
though winged, they
still fail to reach the sky
a place not to be treaded alone
so take me
to a true Elsewhere
wet feathers,
locked fingers,
melting flesh,
fusing minds
take me
I want happiness
Not your past
but your present is what I seek,
carefully winding back its fragile thread
please take me there
I want happiness
Those were the lyrics of one of the songs Kagome had written. About all her hopes and dreams, what happiness might be like.
Being a four-leaf clover didn't mean she had no feelings. Sometimes, she wondered if only Grandma knew that. Everyone else treated her like an object. A fragile delicacy that couldn't be touched.
The only other people she knew, she didn't really know. She talked to Grandma once or twice and there were voices in the background. They never talked directly to her, but through Grandma.
Oh, how she longed for the touch of another human. Anybody. Anyone. Please come. Please take me.
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The three leaf woke with a start.
She's calling us.
All of us.
The clovers.
Three-leafs.
Two-leafs.
Even the one-leafs.
He smiled weakly.
She wants us.
All of us.
To come.
To go.
To her.
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This might be a one-shot. Does anybody like this? And I would like to know so please review! Is it Sesshoumaru? InuYasha? Find out in the next chapter! Help me decide.
