Better than Me
Disclaimer - I don't own the song, "Better than Me" by Hinder or the Harry Potter universe.
Harry could see Ginny smiling and laughing with her friends and felt a stab of sadness. He felt he had done the right thing to protect her, but was it fair on her?
I think you can do much better than me
After all the lies I made you believe
He thought back over when they were dating. How many times had he not told her something? How many times had he omitted the truth, lied straight to her face? He didn't deserve her.
Guilt kicks in when I start to see
The edge of the bed
Where your night gown use to be
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
Sometimes he sees something of hers, or something she gave him and huge waves of guilt wash over him. He tries not to miss her, but can't help it. He wishes she was still his.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
He really misses her smile, its never as bright anymore, and her laugh. She doesn't laugh nearly as much anymore. He doesn't miss the sad and longing glances she throws him, when she thinks nobody is looking. He wishes he could tell her, he doesn't deserve her, but doubts she would agree.
While looking through your old box of notes
I found those pictures I took
That you were looking for
If there's one memory I don't want to lose
That time as the mall
You and me in the dressing room
I told myself I won't miss you
But I remembered
What it feels like beside you
Harry finds the box of memories she gave him. He found the pictures of them. The one of them in the snow, smiling and laughing. He wishes he could go back to that time, but knows he can't. Tomorrow is the Final Battle, but he will never forget the memories.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
Harry wishes she isn't here. At the Final Battle, fighting. He wants her safe; he wants to tell her to leave. But can't, she isn't his anymore, and she wouldn't do it anyway. The battle drags on, until its just him and Voldemort fighting.
The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend
I won't think about you when I'm older
'Cause we never really had our closure
This can't be the end
The light side has won, but at a great cost. Harry is dying. He can feel himself becoming colder; his vision is blurring and knows he can't pretend anymore. He loves her, but won't live to tell her, to grow old with her. Harry tries to fight it, this can't be the end. He can see her crying and in that moment realises. He loves her, but she deserves so much better than him. Someone who is there for her, doesn't make her cry and can grow old with her, and that isn't him.
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
I really miss your hair in my face
And the way your innocence tastes
And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
(And I think you should know this)
(You deserve much better than me)
(And I think you should know this)
A/N: ok random muse. Blame the song, it just reminded me of the Harry/Ginny ship and inspired me to write this fic. Which is strange because I never thought about ever writing a fic for this ship. For a random muse, I think it turned out quite well, don't you?
- Laurs
