Only For You
SeiSeiChan

Summary: Instead of Orihime, Aizen decides to take our favorite orange-haired berry and tempt her to join his side. What is the catch, you ask? She must choose one of the Espada to be her mate, that is, unless she wants the man she loves to be killed.

Main Pairing: Ulquiorra x Ichigo
Side Pairing(s): Renji x Ichigo, Grimmjow x Ichigo

Warnings: Profanity

Authoress Note(s): Once again my muse is being persistent! Damn you, muse. However, this is not a fully-fledged story. If anything, it will be two to three chapters at most. Hooray for sparks of inspiration, right? Hopefully this will appease the little jerk... Anyways, I hope you enjoy this!


If you hide, I'll seek for you.
If you're lost, I'll search for you.
If you leave, I'll wait for you.
If they try to take you away from me, I'll fight for you.
Because I never want to lose someone I love...


Ichigo had been edgy all night long.

She didn't know what it was, but something was bothering her. Even that damned Hollow, as irritatingly hyper as he could be, he could sense something was wrong. Normally, Ichigo would have just ignored him, but, if it seemed to make Shiro tense up... something was defiantly wrong. She had been lying in bed for the past hour, unable to sleep due to a crawling sensation within her skin. It was past midnight and everyone in her family was asleep, even Rukia had managed to fall asleep in the depths of her closet. Ichigo let out an agitated sigh before pulling herself upright; it seemed she wasn't going to be getting any sleep tonight! Her heavy, tired ocher-orbs stared through the window and into the dark abyss that was Karakura Town. Something wasn't right.

"It's too quiet..." Ichigo muttered to herself before gently getting off of her bed.

Her nightgown was a tight, yet simple purple silk gown. Her spiky hair seemed to have gotten even messier during the time span that she had went to bed. She got on her knees and began to fish underneath her bed with her hand. She grabbed at air for a few moments before latching on to a stuffed arm. She pulled out the pure, snow-white rabbit and watched as it rubbed at its eyes for a moment. It blinked then looked up at Ichigo.

"Uwah... H-Hey, Ichi-chan? W-What's the big idea, pyon? I was in a weally nice dweam!" the stuffed animal spoke, its voice steadily rising in volume.

"Chappy, hush! You're going to wake up Rukia if you keep screaming!" Ichigo shushed, putting her finger over the rabbit's muzzle.

"Oh... Chappy's so sorry. She didn't mean to be so woud, pyon!" Chappy spoke, in a hushed voice.

Ichigo smiled then nodded. She placed Chappy on her bed before patting the rabbit on the head as she turned away. Chappy watched on, yawning widely as she did so. Ichigo turned to face her, a serious look on her face. Chappy cocked her head to the side, wondering if she had done anything wrong or if she was about to get scolded. She didn't like getting scolded...

"Chappy, pill form." Ichigo ordered.

"Wight!" Chappy saluted before falling over and a bright, pink pill popped out of the stuffed animal's mouth. Ichigo sighed before taking it and popping it on her own mouth. She swallowed and after a few moments, her Soul form shot out from her body. She was decked out in her Shinigami shihakushō and her Substitute Shinigami badge. On her back was her Zanpakutō, Zangetsu. She stared at her Chappified body as she smirked.

"Now Chappy, all I want you to do is sleep. I'll be back in an hour, so, no waking up Rukia-chan. Okay?" she asked, while Chappy nodded, saluting once more.

"Wight, Ichigo-chan! Chappy won't wake Rukia-sama!" Chappy whispered before obeying Ichigo's orders. She climbed into Ichigo's bed and proceeded to fall right asleep. Ichigo placed her fingertips on Zangetsu's hilt before narrowing her eyes. She needed to be ready for anything and as long as she had Zangetsu by her side, there was no way she could lose!

Ichigo then used a Flash Step to disappear and reappear on her rooftop.

She closed her eyes and began to do some reiatsu searching. Yes, she sucked at it, but, she was decent enough to detect it. After a few moments, a minute source of spiritual pressure made an appearance within Karakura Park. Her brown orbs shot open as she narrowed her eyes.

"There you are, Hollow-teme!" She uttered, drawing Zangetsu from his bandaged 'sheath' and Flash Stepping away.

She appeared directly on top of the swing set within the park and narrowed her eyes, the reiatsu was very dense this close! However, it didn't affect her in the least. She was around Kenpachi constantly, so, she could take thick spiritual pressure at close distances. Ichigo narrowed her eyes before something told her to duck. The second she did, a blade when slashing at where her head once was. Her eyes widened as she darted away and put Zangetsu in an offensive position.

"Ah, so yer not such a fuckin' dumb bitch after all!" an arrogant, gruff voice hissed from the darkness.

That voice... It couldn't be, could it? Ichigo asked herself, glaring at the spot where she was almost decapitated. A blur of blur appeared in her spot as her eyes widened, confirming her suspicions. "So it is you... Grimmjow."

An insane cackle resonated throughout the dimly lit park as the newly identified Grimmjow appeared behind Ichigo's smaller form. Ichigo remained there, keeping her stance as neither of them moved to attack. Ichigo saw right through Grimmjow's guise; attack him and it gave him permission to attempt to kill her. She knew how the male acted from their previous fight, however, that didn't stop her from wanting to attack him. Grimmjow's much larger form toward over Ichigo's small, slender frame as she narrowed her eyes.

"What are you doing here, you bastard." It wasn't a question. Grimmjow vanished from behind her and appeared not twenty feet in front of her. Ichigo stared up at Grimmjow, remembering the last time she had to see his ugly face. She scoffed. Grimmjow as a man with light, sky blue spiky hair and light blue eyes, the latter having small, green markings below them. They reminded Ichigo of the violent, bald Third Seat of the Eleventh Division: Madarame Ikkaku. Grimmjow was wearing what he wore the first time Ichigo fought with him. A white hakama and a black sash; his white jacket is ragged with an upturned collar. The inner lining is black, the sleeves are rolled up, and Grimmjow wears it open, leaving his muscular chest exposed. Ichigo chuckled; Grimmjow was such a slut! Ichigo stared at the jawbone-like fragments of his Hollow mask.

"Whatcha laughin' at, bitch? You gettin' scared, little girl?" Grimmjow taunted while Ichigo straightened her posture, still smirking.

"Scared? Scared of what, Grimmjow? I'm not afraid of a pussy cat." Ichigo cooed, her voice dripping with sarcasm as Grimmjow's eyes widened a fraction before he snarled. "The fuck was that, you damn bitch? You wanna go?"

"Hah! Did I strike a nerve, Grimmjow?" Ichigo called out, busting out with laughter as Grimmjow continued to seethe. No one called him a fucking pussy cat and got away with it! His hand was instantly on the light blue handle of his sheathed Zanpakutō while Ichigo pointed Zangetsu at him. She smirked, her itchy feeling no longer residing within her now that Grimmjow had revealed himself.

"Shall we, Grimmjow? I don't like leaving a job unfinished." Ichigo uttered, while Grimmjow smirked, unsheathing his blade. "Ya know, I'm under orders NOT to kill you, directly from tha fucker Aizen 'imself."

Grimmjow cackled, his violent side beginning rouse from its slumber. "You know what I have to say to that? Fuck. It. I'mma fuckin' murder ya ass, bitch."

"Bring on, neko-chan!" Ichigo hissed, as both of them got ready and in a split second they both vanished in a blur of black and white. The sound of metal on metal resonated throughout the area as their blades collided. Grimmjow scoffed while Ichigo smirked, before throwing Grimmjow away from her. Grimmjow smirked. "C'mon, that tha best you got?"

"Please, neko-chan." Ichigo responded, ignoring the bark of anger from the Espada. She chuckled lightly before cocking her head at him. "You know damn well I can't release a bit of my spiritual pressure here. The same goes for you, right?"

"You're right… However, that won't stop me from killin' ya!" he shouted, vanishing and appeared directly above Ichigo. She gasped and went to strike, only to watch as another blur of white appear before her and sent Grimmjow flying. Ichigo watched as he slammed into a tree, knocking it over as he groaned.

"Tha fuck was that for, you bastard?" Grimmjow shouted, staring at the newest appearance. Grimmjow snarled, forcing himself up as he continued to glare at the white mass before Ichigo. "Fuck ya, Ulquiorra. I can't even have some fun? That's bullshit!"

"You were and still are under orders from Aizen-sama, trash. Learn your place and be thankful that Aizen-sama likes you enough that he won't outright kill you."

"Tch, fuck Aizen!" Grimmjow retorted, angrily.

Ichigo assumed that this new appearance was another Espada.

She narrowed her eyes; there was no way she could take on both of them. Grimmjow, maybe so, if not barely. This new appearance, the one that Grimmjow called Ulquiorra, she had a very bad feeling about. Ulquiorra turned to face Ichigo and she locked eyes with his own large, emerald ones. He was a very frail and slender looking Arrancar with a constant melancholic-like appearance. He was a few inches taller than her and he had deathly white skin, messy, shoulder-length black hair where as some of bangs fell between his eyes. He also had peculiar eyebrows. Ichigo noted the teal lines that fell from his eyes like tears. He looks like he's crying... Ichigo though, taking a step back. A broken horned helmet sat atop his head, and Ichigo assumed that was all that remained of his Hollow mask. Much like Grimmjow he wore a white hakama with a white jacket with elongated coattails and a black sash.

Ichigo took a step back upon noticing the green sheathed Zanpakutō that was resting on his side, his black sash keeping it in place. She narrowed her eyes, Zangetsu at the ready as the male stared down at her. Grimmjow had fallen silent, glaring at the ground as Ulquiorra began to speak.

"You are to come with us, as Aizen-sama requests to speak with you." He uttered, even his voice had no traces of emotions within it.

"Tch, like hell I'd listen to that son of a bitch!" Ichigo responded, mentally debating on whether or not to attack this guy.

"Aizen-sama knew this would be your response. He said you are quite headstrong and very hard-headed. No matter. You will be coming with us." The stoic Espada stated, staring down at her unblinkingly.

"Yeah, and if I don't? What could you possibly do to me that would make me even consider speaking with that bastard?" Ichigo hissed, now on edge.

"If you continue to refuse, I will wipe out all those you care about." Ulquiorra instantly responded, causing Ichigo's eyes to widen. "Care about? Please…"

"Yes. The ones that you have been risking your life to save. The humans, Inoue Orihime and Sado Yasutora. The Quincy, Ishida Uryū. Your family and siblings. All of these people and more… if you continue to be defiant, Grimmjow and I will not hesitate to kill them."

Ichigo narrowed her eyes, "Why should I listen to what that bastard has to say?"

"That is not a good enough reason? Perhaps I shall indulge you in a little bit of information Aizen-sama has given to me." Ulquiorra asked before glanced heavenward. He continued to stare at the night skies for a moment before returning his unwavering stare back at Ichigo. She grunted, "What does he think he know about me, eh?"

"Should we resort to violence, it is not you that shall be killed for your insolence. Another will be the one to pay the price." Ulquiorra paused. "That man, is the one you throw yourself in the face of danger for. He is the one you claim that you're 'in love' with. I do not understand how you feel about this man, nor do I care. However, should you continue with your resistance… He will die."

"…Who is this 'he' and where do you get off saying that I'm in love with someone?" Ichigo hissed, getting ready to attack with a point-blank Getsuga Tenshō.

"His name, you ask?" Ulquiorra asked, continuing to stare down at her. "His name is Abarai Renji."

It was then that Ichigo's entire frame froze and Zangetsu dropped to the ground. Her eyes were wide as she bit her lip. Aizen knew about her feelings for Renji? Were they that obvious? She had been trying her best to cover them up, yet that man, whom she hadn't even seen more than five times, had figured her out. He was able to read her like a book! Was she that weak? While Ichigo was having an inner conflict, Ulquiorra placed his hands in his pockets and continued staring. During the entire time, his facial expression never changed.

Grimmjow stood and walked over to the smaller Espada. Ulquiorra made a motion and the larger male sauntered over and picked up Ichigo's dropped Zanpakutō. A burst of white and blue energy shot forth and burned him. He hissed in pain before dropping the blade. "Shit, that fuckin' hurt."

"Quite impressive, for a Zanpakutō." Ulquiorra mumbled to himself. "It seems the Zanpakutō's mental awareness of what is going on can allow it to defend itself. Aizen-sama is right about this girl."

"Tch, yeah well, that fuckin' hurt!" Grimmjow hissed, grabbing the blade once more and ignored the burning sensation in his hands and threw the blade over his shoulder. He winced in pain as he turned away from Ulquiorra.

"I'm goin' back. I ain't needed here no more anyways." He spat before opening a Garganta. Ulquiorra remained silent, even as Grimmjow disappeared behind the closing Garganta; he continued to stare at the distraught Ichigo.

"Have you made your decision yet? Grimmjow has taken your Zanpakutō back to our headquarters, Las Noches within Hueco Mundo." Ulquiorra told her.

"Yes, I have made my decision…" Ichigo uttered, as Ulquiorra took a step forward. He was met with a sharp sting across his face as Ichigo slapped him. She began to break down, clutching her face in her palms while she tried to hide the fact she was about to cry. Ulquiorra, while slightly stunned, did not show it. He merely fixed his posture and continued to stare at her.

"Well?"

"…F-Fine. Just… Just don't hurt him." Ichigo finally caved.

"Excellent choice, Kurosaki. Now, put this on to mask your presence." Ulquiorra demanded, and for once, Ichigo did not ask any questions or pitch a fit about it. He produced a white bracelet and forcefully grabbed Ichigo's arm. She winced, but did not complain. She had gotten herself into this, after all. After she put it on, Ulquiorra turned away from her and took a few steps.

"Under Aizen-sama's command, you are allowed to say goodbye to one person. You are not allowed to physically interact with them and thus, you cannot be seen or heard. That bracelet will allow only Arrancar to see you while Shinigami and humans cannot hear, feel, or see you. Is that understood, Kurosaki?"

"…Yes, understood." Ichigo submitted.

"Good. Now, who is the person you choose?" Ulquiorra asked, staring up at the skies once more. It seemed he was ignoring her very existence, that was, until she spoke.

"That should be obvious… I want to goodbye to him, Abarai Renji." Ichigo responded, the venom in her voice clear. Ulquiorra turned to face her and blinked, for what seemed the second time during their entire conversation. He nodded, "I see. Go say goodbye to that piece of trash and meet be back at your home."

"Why my own home?" Ichigo asked, now worried.

"I need to retrieve your body, Kurosaki. You have two hours to say your goodbye, but, I expect you to be on your rooftop within thirty minutes. You will be punished severely if you are late." Ulquiorra spoke before vanishing in a blur of white. Ichigo ran forward and punched the air where the Espada used to be.

"Fuck you, asshole…" she hissed, her fist trembling. However, she realized she was wasting her time and then took a step back. Before muttering something incomprehensible, she used a Flash Step to vanish in a blur of black.

After she vanished, Ichigo reappeared at the door of Sado's home.

Instead of her house, Renji stayed with the large, tan male. Ichigo was actually all for it, but, her father would have none of that. Ichigo allowed a small smirk to grace her normally scowling features as she chucked at her father's overprotectiveness. She pulled her hands to her chest, the braclet making a small jingling noise. The said noise caught her attention as she glanced down at her wrist, eyeing the small piece of jewerly with anger. As much as she hated it, she had no choice but to wear it. This was the only chance she'd probably get to say what she really wanted to say...

God damn you, Aizen... Ichigo thought, staring at her lack of a reflection.

After a few moments of silence, Ichigo realized she only had two hours to say goodbye and do whatever she needed to do. She let out a shaky sigh before walking through the door. She simply phased through it with no problem and now, she had entered Chad's home. If he ever found out, she would be for a good scolding and maybe disappointed look. Ichigo mentally chuckled at her own joke, amused that Chad could be such a pushover at times. Regardless of that, he was still her friend and she was doing this for him too. She sniffed the air, then followed the scent of Renji's masked spiritual pressure. It led her to Chad's own room, but, there was no Chad there. Ichigo instantly became worried that he felt her enter his home. However, Shiro's calming voice suddenly popped up.

"Calm yer fuckin' tits, Queenie. He's asleepin' in 'nother room. Probably ta give ole pineapple 'ere his space." The Hollow uttered, his voice full of irritation. Ichigo nodded, "R-Right..."

She walked over to the large, sleeping form of the fiery lieutenant and stood there for a minute. Her body became consumed with trembling as she placed her hand onher lips, trying to keep herself quiet. She knew that Renji couldn't hear her or feel her presence, but, she'd rather not risk anything to put him in harm's way.

Ichigo chocked back a sob, her tears freely flowing as she loomed over Renji's sleeping form.

"Renji, you bastard! I... You know, there were a lot of things that w-went unsaid between us. L-Like... I never got to t-thank you. Y-You were the first person t-that didn't make fun of my hair a-and you knew t-the real meaning behind my name. N-Not one person has ever gotten it right, not even Yuzu-neechan or Karin-neechan." She sobbed out, her crystalline tears sliding down her cheeks and falling on Renji's tattooed forehead. She let out a stifled chuckle as she placed her hand on his cheek, her vision completely blurred due to her tears.

"I... I just wish that you and I could, like, live a different life. A life where you and I are good friends and death didn't separate us. I wish that you could come see me all day and talk about all the things you've seen. Ohhh, I wish I could come visit you each and every day without worrying about getting killed crossing the Reishi Henkan-Ki." Ichigo uttered, slowly getting on her knees and closing the distance between their faces. Ichigo brushed her lips against Renji's before pulling away, her hands instantly covering her face. Failing to keep her saddened squeal back, Ichigo began to quietly bawl into her hands.

"It's just not fair, damn it. Why! Why did you have to come along and ruin everything? I was happy when I was alone! Then you came along and threw my heart into turmoil, Renji. I had accepted my fate... my f-fate of being alone forever. I was so happy then. You came along and I... I fell in love with you." Ichigo spoke, pulling her hands from her face as she wiped the tears away with her wrist. "Even when we were enemies, I was so infatuated with you... When you and I became allies to save Rukia... that was the first time I had felt such happiness in a long t-time! When we saved Rukia, I saw your face light up. At that moment... It was at that moment I knew I never stood a chance with you. You're madly in love with Rukia, Renji... even I can see that. All I want for you is for you to be happy, Renji. If it makes you happy then do it. E-Even if it breaks my heart to see you with someone else... if you're happy then I'm happy for you!"

Wiping her eyes once more, Ichigo leaned forward and for the first time, kissing Renji directly on the lips. During this time, she was in an almost euphoric state. If the circumstances were different, then maybe… just maybe, something about the two 'rivals' could change. She held her position for a few moments before pulling away, sensing a very faint presence coming her way. She sniffled once more before standing and began to dig around in her shihakushō. She pulled out her Substitute Shinigami Badge and placed it on Renji's chest. She gave a soft, genuine smile as she turned and walked towards the window. Fighting with her inner mind, she desperately tried not to turn and look at the man. She had managed to stop crying, though one final, single tear slid down her cheek as she spoke.

"Thank you, Renji. Thank you for everything..." With that, Ichigo disappeared out the window.

She used a Shunpo to appear back at her house where the Espada, whom had identified himself as Ulquiorra, stood waiting with her human body thrown over his shoulder. His face remained impassive as Ichigo approached and bowed her head in defeat. His wide, emerald eyes stared down at her as he spoke, his voice void of any emotion.

"Well?"

"Y-Yes... I have said all I need to say." Ichigo spoke, her puffy eyes slowly losing their light as Ulquiorra turned his back to her.

Ichigo mentally fidgeted with her hair, as doing so in front of his stoic prick might make him show some form of irritation. God forbid that, after all. After a few seconds, Ulquiorra turned to face her. "Hn, very well then. From this day forward you, Kurosaki Ichigo, are no longer a part of the Soul Society. Instead, you are now a member of Aizen-sama's Arrancar Army and will do well to obey each and every command I, or any of the other Espada, give you. Is that understood?"

Why even ask? You're basically saying I HAVE to obey otherwise I risk that bastard Aizen killing all of my friends... Ichigo thought, narrowing her eyes at the pale Arrancar. She nodded, "Yes. I understand..."

"Good." Ulquiorra blinked then turned around, and preformed a Descorrer. Ichigo watched as the fabric of space became distorted as the Garganta began to open. Ichigo watched as Ulquiorra walked forward and Ichigo slowly followed. She gave one final glance at her home, and then turned her back on Karakura Town for good.

I'm so sorry, everyone. Please, forgive me... She thought as the Garganta closed behind her.