Disclaimer.

This is going to be a Rizzles Story, that I promise.

I just started it though, so here is the first chapter:


Jane had thought about saying it for years. She practiced mentally every hour. She had pictured the conversation in every way possible. Everyday for the past three years she had thought about what if. The only thing stopping her was the thought of not getting it perfectly for Maura. Because she deserves the best. That means I get to be the best for her. If only. And now, she thought, is the moment. I can't waste anymore time, I need Maura to be mine. Hey- that rhymed. Okay Rizzoli stay focused. This is it. Maura will have seen what I left her by now. Okay, according to plan I have... Jane looked at her phone to check the time. 6:00. Now. Jane thought as she knocked on the door and promptly it opened, revealing Maura dressed in fancier than usual clothes.

Jane grinned, "Hey Maur, may I come in?" She must have figured it out by now. God she looks gorgeous when she TRIES to dress up. Like she doesn't on a regular basis.

"Sure." Maura said, shifting her eyes behind her. She further opened her door to let Jane in.

Jane walked in and eyed the engraved silver heart laying on Maura's counter. She saw it. She had to. But those flowers... are not my doing...

Maura saw Jane staring and spoke up, "I know, isn't that sweet? I believe they are from James. You know, the guy that I met a couple weeks ago?"

Not that fucking guy. Jane thought to herself, attempting to mask her heartbreak, even to herself. "Yeah, I know who that is. He got you flowers, that's nice." Jane said trying her best to play dumb, and well, not cry.

Maura's face lit up, and she added, "And he also left me a heart shaped metal piece that is engraved with a lovely Massage." Maura studied Jane's face and couldn't read it. "Would you like to see it?" Maura asked.

What the hell am I supposed to to?! Do I tell her that it was me? She seems happy. What if she doesn't feel the same way? Them she would no longer want to be friends with me. As long as she is happy, I should be, right? I WANT HER TO FUCKING KNOW THAT I LOVE HER. Just say it. No, don't. Now or never. Now. No, wheNEVER. Ugh. Think fast. "Uhh, sure." Jane managed.

"I got a text that said 'I left you something' from James. I cam home and there were flowers at my doorstep. I thought, 'Well, at least it was a nice gesture' I then came inside and saw a package and opened it. This, was in it." Maura almost rambled to Jane.

It's gonna be a long year... "Oh. It's a heart. That's also nice." Jane said.

Maur couldn't figure out why Jane was so unresponsive. She frankly asked, "Did you not read it? Is that why you aren't happy for me?"

Jane tried her best at smiling, "I guess so, Maur. You read it to me."

Maura took the engraved heart back from Jane and read, "Dear Maura, I feel like I have known you forever because of how comfortable, blessed, and better you make me. Everyday, I smile just because I remember that you exist. If you gave me a chance, I would spent the rest of my life loving you. See you around, J."

Jane was crying at that point for a couple reasons. One, being that she got to see Maura smile, but not just smile, it was a smile that Jane had created. Only, the tears came from the fear that she had lost Maura to James. Dammit! Why does his name have to end with a "J" "That's amazing, Maur." Jane spoke. "The only thing is, is that I-" Jane was interrupted by the doorbell.

Maura said, "HE"S HERE. I'll be right back." as she darted out of her kitchen and to the door. Jane stood there, heart broken, and feeling alone once again. She was able to hold back the tears until she heard "I missed you" in a mans voice and the sound of lips smacking.

"I'm glad you liked the little something I left you, Maura." James said while entering looking around the room until his eyes fixed on Jane. No, No No No No, flowers? Maura is worth a hell of a lot more than that buddy. You could at least have tried.

Jane didn't put out her hand, but instead balled it into a fist. "Hi- I'm Jane."

James awkwardly looked back at her, "James. I have heard about you. Maura talks about you a lot. Anyway, we-" He took Maura's hand, "Have a date to attend."

Jane was not only unimpressed, but mad. She looked at Maura, her love. Well, happiness wins this round. "Have a good date, Maur." Jane said as she stormed passed both Maura and James. "

"but Jane, you didn't finish your sentence earlier!" Maura shouted before Jane got to her car. Jane turned back to Maura and shot her a meaningful look.

"Just forget about it, Maur." Jane looked away after 5 seconds and drove off. In the car, Jane couldn't help but cry. She made it one mile before she had to pull over and just cry. Thank god for tinted windows. She thought as she threw her head into her hands. That should be me. I love her. I try my best everyday to make her smile. I am letting her down. Oh who am I kidding, she loves him. Even if I left her the heart. My heart. If she thinks its him and she is happy, then awesome. I will just you know, be in love with someone who doesn't love be back, lets see.. hmm.. FOREVER.

Jane pulled herself together with whatever she had left of her and somehow got to her apartment. She got undressed, pulled on sweatpants and threw her body on the couch. The best.. my ass. Maura. Maura. I love Maura. Maura Maura doesn't love Jane. Jane sighed.


The next morning Jane stirred, it was 9:00, and she remembered crying herself to sleep. She also remembered watching Maura go just like that, Maura was with somebody else. She lad lost her. But their friendship was still there. If Jane could handle it. She looked at her phone again, three text messages. All from Maura. Great. She opened them all and read them:

Jane! We are not done talking. It's out day off, do you want to go running, or play tennis or something? -Maura

Jane smiled, feeling a little better, then read the next one:

Oh and did I tell you, I came home to another gift from James. It was a piece similar to the heart, only it was an oversized scalpel. The best part is that it had cheesy pickup lines all over it, then 'I can be funny sometimes too. But I am only especially funny when I know I can make you laugh. J'

Jane's emotions faded. Fuck, I forgot about that. At least she thought it was funny. I can't do this. But I will have to if it means I can be friends with her still. Jane opened the last message:

I give up. I'm coming over to your house. Now.

Jane saw that the text was sent a bit ago. Then the knock came. "COMING!" Jane shouted. She went to the door but before she opened it she asked, "Maur?"

"Yes, Jane. Were you expecting somebody else? Should I go?" Maura responded. Jane opening the door mid-way through the questions.

Jane smiled, "Do I look like I am expecting anybody?"

Maura looked at Jane. Still wearing the shirt from yesterday. The sweat pants she wore a week ago. Probably not washed. She was standing awkwardly. "No." Maura responded . "The last time you looked like this is when Hoyt came back the second time. Are you okay?"

Jane was nervous she would break but answered truthfully, "I'm alright Maura. It's nothing like Hoyt. It's more... my.. I just..." Jane struggled.

"I hate to guess, but is it something that would require a hug from your best friend? Because I am right here." Maura said.

Man, I love her. Jane thought. "Yeah. Something like that." She said opening her arms. The hug was longer than usual, and Jane was loosing her mind. Jane could not keep her mind off of how hurt and angry she was. But she did have Maura in her arms, so there was nothing to complain about for the time being.

Maura on the other hand was thinking, I always knew that Jane would be in my life forever, and I would be in hers. But what if James is too? What if Jane thinks I don't want to be her friend anymore? "Jane, would you like to have lunch with me and James tomorrow?" Maura asked.

Jane knew that she would probably break, but said, "Sure." anyway then broke the hug. "But first. Today. Tennis? Golf? Softball? Any other stereo-typical lesbian activities?" Jane half-joked.

Maura laughed and playfully punched Jane's arm, laugh-whispering, "Jane!" She looked into Jane's eyes, "Come on.."


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