A/N: decided to start a new story, please review
Kate woke to the small cries and whimpers of her young son, sounding through the baby monitor on her nightstand, it was the 4th time that night that Kate had woken to the cries of her son. Kate was struggling, she was a single mother, not how she had planned to start a family after meeting the man of her dreams, the hot doctor Josh Davidson, and discovering she was pregnant while he was in Haiti on a doctors without Boarders mission, he was saving life's while she lay crying on her bathroom floor, clutching the white stick which changed her life.
Sliding out from underneath her comforter, Kate grabbed a robe off of the back of her bedroom door, before making her way along her hallway and into her sons nursery.
Upon opening the door, the faint glow of the airplane nightlight casted shadows up the walls, illuminating her sons cot, where she could see her young 1 year old son sitting up against the cot railings, face red from crying and his hand fisted rubbing his eyes, seeing Kate he outstretched his arms towards her and babbled.
"Mommy"
Kate lifted her son into her arms settling him against her chest, where he rested his head in the crook of her neck and fisted his hand in her robe, his cries softening, Kate paced round the room before resting herself into the armchair which stood into the corner of her Ethan's nursery. It was her mothers armchair, the same armchair that her mother had sat and rocked Kate to sleep just over 25 years ago, when Kate was an infant.
Placing a kiss on his forehead, while her hand brushed his soft brown curls off of his forehead, the resemblance of Ethan to his father caused Kate's mind to wander back to the day when she first held him in her arms.
12th May 2013 at 4:43pm
"Congratulations Kate it's a boy"
The nurse handed Kate over a wrapped up bundle, peering out was the face of her newborn son, his eyes open and alert. Kate had never been so nervous, not even as nervous as when she told Josh or her father that she was pregnant.
"Hello baby boy, I'm your mommy, and I love you and will always protect you, sorry Daddy couldn't be her right now he's off saving the world, but you'll get to see him soon I promise."
Little did Kate no that in only a few short days time, her life would change, thinking back she remembered to when Castle turnt up at her door, to give her the news of Josh's passing.
"Castle what are you doing here"
"Kate, I think I should come in and maybe you should sit down"
Shifting the sleeping baby in her ams Kate settled onto the couch beside Castle
"Kate, I'm so sorry, but he's gone"
"What do you mean, he's gone"
"Josh, your dad received a phone call informing him that while working with a patient Josh collapsed, and when a fellow doctor examined him they discovered that he had contracted Malaria and his body was too weak to fight the infection."
Kate was unable to register Castles words, instead she set her focus on the sleeping baby in her arms, and how he would grow up never meeting his father, and how Josh had so desperately wanted to meet him, but now he would not have the chance.
Castle reached out and took Ethan out of Kate's arms placing him in his Moses basket before embracing Kate in a hug as she broke down in his arms, her face buried in the collar of his shirt, her tears staining it, while the sins racked her body. Castle had only ever seen Kate break down when she first discovered she was pregnant, although he did find her crying while she pregnant one things like people moving the decaffeinated coffee in the break room at the precinct.
The next time Kate woke the sun was filtering the curtains of her sons nursery, casting an orange glow,over her her son who slept soundly in her arms against her chest, a snore escaping his mouth every few breaths.
Kate shifted Ethan in her arms so that she could rise from the armchair, placing him in his cot but now before tucking his blue elephant teddy in beside him. When Kate had told Josh that she was pregnant, he insisted that it was a boy and went out and brought the blue elephant teddy, which Ethan had grown to love. Closing the door slightly, Kate made her way back across her apartment and into the kitchen, she was in desperate need of coffee and after a restless night and a day faced with paperwork. Kate needed the caffeine boost more than ever.
After drinking her coffee and checking that Ethan was still sleeping soundly in his cot, Kate entered her bathroom in desperate need of a shower, she had been unable to wash the previous days dirt and grime off when she had returned home to nigh before late after picking Ethan up from her fathers house, after sundown.
Turing the hot water on, steam filled the bathroom almost instantly, Kate stripped herself off her robe, camisole and shorts which was her usual sleeping attire to step under the pulsing jets of the shower allowing the water to relax her muscles and wash away the tension.
Stepping out of the shower, Kate wrapped herself in a towel before exiting to her bedroom, Kate was Able to make the soft snores of her son out over the baby monitor, while she decided that days outfit, which consisted off Black slacks, a white button up shirt and blazer matched with a pair of 4 inch heeled boots.
Kate glanced over at the digital alarm clock on her nightstand, to see that she only had short of an hour and a half to be at the precinct and she still faced the struggle of washing and dressing a toddler.
A/N: please review should I give up writing forever or continue
