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He looked into her eyes, and he knew. Knew that she felt nothing for him, nothing but friendship- nothing but a platonic relationship. She would never know the pain he felt, never know all that he felt for her.

Now here you expect some sappy, 'We were best friends since first year, we were friends forever, we fell for each other story.' Well, I'm sorry, but that isn't really what this is. I would tell you what this is, but I'm not so sure myself.

She could actually hate me on the inside, and I wouldn't even know. She's good like that, with hiding her emotions. I don't think anyone can ever tell what that girl is thinking, what she dreams about, what she wishes to be, her worst fears.

When you look at her you see some headstrong, tough, rude girl. She isn't though, there is more to her; I just need to find out what. I know I sound like some pathetic boy that's in love, but I'm not. I'm not in love with her...I'm pretty sure. I don't even know what love is. Well not yet.


'What would happen now?' She thought. What should I tell him this time? With ease I can read him, and it has my heart and mind conflicting. On one side I want to see those feelings, I need to see them. I want to know that someone wants me, need to know that someone cares. On the other hand, I promised myself this would never happen.

I promised myself I wouldn't end up like this. I wouldn't put myself in this situation all over again. It's just so painful. I hate that I let this happen; hate that it was so damn easy to let him in.

I just couldn't go through with the same thing happening again. It cannot happen. No one understands it, and no one sees what I'm conflicting with. I did it once and I faced the consequences, and to see that look of sadness on everyone's face, to see them mourn, it hurt. I can't deal with that happening; refuse to see it happen all over again.

So for now, I mask my face, my feelings, my heart, and hope that he doesn't see anything; hope that my act is good enough for him. And with venom I hope it hurts him a fraction of how much it hurts me. But I know I can never hate him. Even I'm not that strong. Well not yet.


So I wrote this ages ago, thinking that I was going to finish it, but never did. It's just a short one-shot. Tell me what you think :)

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