"Dan, I wanted to tell you that...No that won't work! Remember Phil, Dan is still unaware you even want him let alone that you're gay and you want him."
Phil was pacing around his bathroom. Dan had been his best friend for a while, and until recently that was all he wanted.
Then Phil figured it out.
Phil always knew he was different. His YouTube channel proved that.
Then he and Dan went to a party, Dan got super drunk and kissed him. Not just kissed him, they were full on snogging right in the middle of their friend's living room.
Dan didn't remember any of it, but Phil did. He remembered how he had gotten stiff, not like normal though. It was more like a sensual side of him was making an appearance.
Phil's awkward past was now explained. Phil was gay, and Dan wasn't. That's all there was to it.
Dan didn't know yet though, and he didn't remember that kiss. Even when someone asked about it Dan denied it. He said, don't say anything.
"Our fans already want us to date. Saying we kissed would turn two fandoms upside down."
He'd thought of moving out, but they had just relocated to London. It would look like he were running away. He wanted to run away.
He exited the bathroom and into his bedroom, a nice new commodity in the flat. He looked at his computer and began to edit his video again. This one was coming along nicely.
Fans kept asking for more Phil and Dan time. Phil just couldn't do it.
Every time he and Dan talked it was now awkward. Awkward small talk or mindless gibberish. Unless in front of the camera, then they joked around and were friends.
Phil was bored and started into the kitchen, he just couldn't talk to Dan tonight.
"How will I tell him? Will he avoid me? Probably not anymore than he already does. That kiss he denies, it's like he remembers but tries harder to forget." Phil thought aloud.
He walked in the kitchen and saw Dan wasn't sitting in the living room playing Guild Wars 2.
"How odd," Phil thought. "He is always out here. Guess not for tonight."
Phil grabbed a drink from the fridge and fled back in retreat to his room. He heard the door slowly shut behind him and he opened his can and took a swig.
He was getting tired so he decided he'd take a nap, just so he could get his energy up.
He woke up around three in the morning and heard a stir. He laughed at himself, being scared of a stir. Then he saw he had a tumblr notification. Well, he always had notifications...but this one stood out.
"Phil, when are you and Dan just going to make out already? Just go ahead and do it, your Phans will thank you later."
Phil decided right then, he had to talk to Dan.
Phil wiped away a tear at the thought. He fixed his collar and then slowly opened the door to see if Dan was out.
He looked across the hall and saw Dan's lamp on.
"Good, he's up right now."
He knocked lightly on the door, but heard no answer so he turned the knob.
What awaited him on the other side, however, was not what he expected.
Dan was at his desk, laptop screen up. His headphones were on and it made it obvious what Dan was doing.
Phil took another step in, and out of curiosity looked closer. He saw two men, both with enormous cocks sucking one another off. He also saw Dan, vigorously moving his left hand up and down his shaft watching intently. His headphones were plugged in, the reason why Dan hadn't heard Phil.
Phil was oblivious now to the screen and was watching Dan, who had now noticed his reflection on the screen and turned his chair around, unplugging the headphones in the process, as Dan made his big finish all over the floor.
"Ack! Phil, please just...out!" Dan said trying to cover himself whilst Phil looked away. He quickly scurried across the hall to his own room.
He and Dan both masturbated, with no girlfriends and both of them being antisocial it was common. However, they always went in the bathroom and locked the door when they did. Never out in the open for fear what just happened would happen.
Or they'd be filming and want a glimpse of the other and catch their roommate doing the naughty by themselves.
Phil looked down and saw he was hard.
"Well this is awkward..." he mumbled.
He turned around and saw Dan, now fully clothed, standing in the doorway.
"Phil, I'm sorry you had to see that. I saw you were asleep and, well I guess I hadn't imagined you'd wake back up so soon."
"Dan, you don't have to apologize. We all have...urges." Phil stuttered, trying to hide his semi.
"I know but, I mean I came right in front of you. Not to mention you saw and heard my dirty little secret."
Phil had forgotten all about the gay porn, but Dan hadn't.
"What are you talking about?" Phil asked innocently.
"The porn? It was two men, and no before you start questioning, no I'm not gay."
"Then why do you watch gay porn?" Phil questioned, genuinely confused now.
"Well, you see...um I'm not gay. I actually don't understand how or why but I find two men extremely attractive. Especially the cry of a submissive man underneath the sturdy arms of the one whom is underneath him." Dan said, he couldn't stop the flood of hormones now entering his system.
Phil and Dan both were now stiff, testosterone filling their veins. Phil knew it wouldn't be long before he couldn't hold it in any longer.
"Dan, I'm not sure if we should discuss this. I mean you and I..." Phil began before he felt Dan's hands on his shoulders.
"Phil, we're both horny and there's no doubt about it. I'm not an idiot...and well, I have been meaning to ask you. Since we're both single, and well we both have urges...would you be terribly offended if I asked you to be my quintessential fuck buddy?" Dan was beginning to get flustered. This was such an awkward question to ask a friend. Not only that but they were straight. At least in Dan's mind, and in his mind this all made sense.
Phil was flabbergasted. The man he had wanted for so long now just asked if they could be temporary lovers.
"Dan, I...I don't know about this. I mean we live together, and what if this doesn't work out?" Before Phil could finish his rant though he felt those strong hands on him again. However this time, they were meant with a much more gentle tone.
"It doesn't make us gay, dear Phil. I read about this online actually, a lot of young men do this. Straight and single young men who are just looking for a way to release without using their hands. Still strictly on a friendship basis, and still single, and still straight...no one has to know. If it will make you more comfortable we don't have to do hardcore stuff yet."
Dan knew consciously that he wanted women...but every man has some homosexual tendencies. Dan also knew Phil was borderline bisexual. Dan knew more about Phil than he let on. He had seen Phil in his sleep moan the name of an occasional male friend. He also knew that he himself loved watching two men have sex.
"How would it feel," he thought "to have anal with Phil? Who would be the dominant?"
"Let's start easy..." Phil said, snapping Dan back into reality. "Nothing too serious...but I am growing uncomfortable, in a most pleasant way." He said smirking.
Phil decided to take the lead now, pushing Dan into the desk chair. Phil grasped Dan's useless belt and unbuckled it. Dan sighed, this was perfect. A new way to let go.
Phil was careful to leave Dan's pants for last, as he slipped off his own shirt. Then he leaned over Dan and gently bit his neck. Enough for Dan to feel without getting a hickey. He slid off Dan's shirt, grazing over his now stiff crotch.
Dan couldn't continue to wait, so he began to peel off his jeans. Phil laughed, "You're so antsy, wait a second and I'll help you there."
Phil was dragging this moment out, he felt like this was a dream and any moment he'd wake up and have to live in reality. Phil removed Dan's boxers and just stared for a glorious moment.
"Phil, are you alright?" Dan asked, eyes shining with concern.
"Yes, marveling in the shadow of this glorious structure. How on earth have you hidden this for so long? And how did I not notice earlier when you were wanking?"
"While you did see me come all over the floor, I was hiding the true size with the fact I still had all my clothes on. And you have far too many clothes on."
"You wait just a minute...I'm not finished with you." Phil said as Dan reached for his buttons.
Phil tried to quiet Dan by grazing his tongue along the underside of Dan's cock. He heard Dan gasp and then saw his head fly back in pleasure.
"Enjoying yourself?" Phil teased.
"Just keep going...you're doing perfectly."
Phil tried to continue without coming himself. He took the head in his mouth and began to suck gently. Going deeper and deeper with each passing second.
"Phil, I'm going to...I'm going to..."
*beep* *beep* *beep* *beep*
Phil's alarm clock rung. He was in a daze, and he couldn't remember what had been happening.
He looked next to him, sure he hadn't been dreaming. The bed was empty of everyone but lion.
He tried to find a trace but all he found was a few of his own discarded clothes and a computer full of notifications sitting near him.
"What on earth...I'm sure I wasn't dreaming."
He looked over across the hall and saw Dan curled up in his bed.
Maybe what he thought had happened was only just a dream...
