Here I am thinking about you. Thinking about your reasons, your tears and mine. How many times have I wished to forget you? To make you disappear from my mind, from my dreams? And you still stay there. You were always so stubborn.

You hurt me. I'm here feeling all alone and dark. I'm mourning myself since your leaving and you still stay away. I miss you.

I have stopped counting the times I saw you. In the dark corner at the end of the street, between the shadows of my room. And yet you are never there and I can't stop seeing you.

I can't cry, not anymore. You don't deserve my tears and you also didn't deserve my love. And yet you have them both, you have taken them away with you and I can't have them back. My mind is saying it's all over and yet my hope refuses to be vanished. And I keep seeing you every minute of every day.

And at night it is even worse. I can't keep you away of my dreams, I don't want to. And in my dreams I see everything again. I revive the words, the kisses, the glances. I replay your words over and over in my head till I wake up screaming your name. And when I don't find you at my side all these months come rushing back and I can't cry. All my tears are already shed and I can't find anymore within me.

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***Depressing much? I certainly hope so. Tell me what you think.***