I guess I've always felt lonely. I had a some what great family caring and loving mom lots of sisters and brothers. It would have been great if my dad and mom didn't split. Sometimes I would go months without seeing my dad, I try to think of it as nothing, but really he means everything to me. I guess I'm just naturally a daddy's girl to still love him like I do. I look back at my childhood memories and I rarely see him, don't see him pushing me on the swings, taking me for a walk, nothing…

Tears rolled down my eyes and it was getting hard to breath. This is the first time I sat down and actually thought about my dad and mine relationship. I always wonder if he loves me because he does or if he loves me because he has too.

Those wonderful moments when he comes by my heart soars and I can't stop smiling it's the greatest feeling in the world. Those 15 minutes is the best day of my life.

I always wonder if he was around, the person I would be today.

Its the worst feeling when the person you love so much, doesnt give back..

I would write more about my life but it's getting hard to read and see and its too emotionally. Even if I wrote more about what I feel it would probably never end…
This is not a poem, simply something that came from my heart, this is the first time I sat down and thought about this, and it really does hurt..

This is the song i was listening too, it feels right to write too...

Bad day, looking for a way,
Home, looking for the great escape,
Get in his car and drives away,
Far from all the things that we are,
Puts on a smile and breathes it in,
And breathes it out, he says,
Bye bye bye to all the noise,
Oh, he says, bye bye bye to all the noise.

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo
Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo

Hey child, things are looking down,
Thats okay, you dont need to win anyways,
Dont be afraid, just eat up all the gray,
And it will fade away.

Dont let yourself fall down.

Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo
Doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo noo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo doo
Doo doo doo doo doo doo noo noo noo

Bad day, looking for the great escape,
He says, bad day, looking for the great escape,
On a bad day, looking for the great escape,
The great escape.

This hauntingly beautiful song belongs to Patrick Watson; The Great Escape.