Lessons Learned

One more betrayal.

What did t matter in the great scheme of things.

One more person who had let him down.

He should have known better than to let them get close. To laugh and joke, share and confide, just to find out they thought they were better than him. Just to be let down by someone he trusted once again.

Oh the apology came alright but it was too late. A bit of his heart, his soul would be forever broken, forever blackened to that person.

He cursed the tears, cursed himself for letting someone get that close, for giving someone that power over him. For trusting.

He said things would go back to normal but he knew it was a lie. How could things ever go back to how they had been. It would never be the same again.

No one seemed to realise just how very difficult it was for him tom open up to someone, to let someone in even just a little bit. They just chewed him up and spit him out and he was so very tired of beoing the negotiator. Wasn't he entitled to some peace of his own?

He was disgusted with himself for almost pleading for them to stay.

Never again.

He'd endured such hurts with barely a whimper but this emptiness inside threatened to consume him. All caused by his own carelessness in opening his heart to someone once again.

When would he ever learn.

Alone was the only way forward. The only way that was safe. For everyone.