"Oh god.. No...you promised Danny... you promised..."

I shot up from the bed and looked around. Another nightmare.

Another night.

It had been the same since the accident.

The worst part, Danny was in a coma for the 3rd month figthing for his life.

I relived that moment 65 out of each day I kept myself on my own feet actually seeing the day light.

Looking around I noticed the beds to the twins, and my door open. After the wedding and the shooting I hadnt gone back to london not even Oslo.

Someone entered the room, I looked up from staring at my fingers. Mrs Jones stood there looking at me.

"Did I wake you?" I asked.

She shaked her head and leaned over Prestons bed, smiling she pulled away and looked at me again.

"Whats up?" She asked.

"Nightmares.." I said as my voice got shakey.

"Danny?" She asked. I nodded and got up.

"I need to go for a run" I answered as I pulled some sweats on and a sweater. Grabbing my ipod I walked downstairs to find James walking out of the guestroom.

The others had rented a house nearby and had decided to stay around for more information about Danny.

"Where you going?" He asked as he was scratching his head, I smiled seeing his hair looking like someone had raped it.

"For a run"

"Can I come?"

"Try to keep up"

When the sun shines

We'll shine together

Told you I'll be here forever

That I'll always be your friend

Took an oath Imma stick it out 'till the end

Now that it's raining more than ever

Know that we still have each other

You can stand under my Umbrella

You can stand under my Umbrella

(Ella ella eh eh eh)

Under my umbrella

(ella ella eh eh eh)

Under my umbrella

(ella ella eh eh eh)

Under my umbrella

(ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)

My mind kept drifting off to Danny as I was running through the streets of bolton, with a completely out of shape Bourne keeping it going a few miles behind me.

By each tought I kept running faster and faster. Stopping by this bridge that gave you the view of Bolton I broke down, when James caught up with me I turned towards him.

"Why is everything happening to me? Why is it always someone out there who just needs to mess up my life? What the hell have I done wrong?" I asked him.

"You havent done anything wrong honey" He said pulling me into a hug. I sobbed on his shoulder, the world had been such a cruel place to live for a long time. And when the accident happend I felt like everything in this world didnt matter. As Danny fell down I grabbed him and held him in my arms as the ambulance pulled up. First few weeks after the wedding and the accident it felt like I was falling apart.

"So why is god taking away the only guy I ever loved?" I asked looking up into his eyes.